To zanarkand. This piece's from Final Fantasy X. But it reminds me of the days when i go gaga over Rurouni Kenshin, Samurai X.

Feels that i missed those days so much. Life seems hard, but was enjoyable.

Perhaps i've sudden mood swings.. Life juz sux. Or rather, today sux~ Totally sux.. Whatever it is, it's a bad day. Mayb i'm too sensitive, or mayb the other party is too insensitive.

Release of 'O' level results.

Didn receive anybody's good news. It seems that the people i knew, was rather disappointed with their results. Couldn't believe it, cos they all did better than me~ well.. My cousin got 8, and she's not really happy abt it. She could cry for many days and nights when her prelims got 9.. I wonder how she feels when she got 8. Hmmz.. mayb not as bad i as thought? Anywae she did better than her prelims rite?

It sets me thinking yesterday. How can I be so happy when i actually got 14? Where others get so much better and they are unsatisfied.. I could celebrate for many days, even cried and receive embraces from friends.. All thanks to my disasterous prelims huh? Make me lower the expectations from myself.. Perhaps it is better this way, it makes a person happier when the expectations are lower... =) This is how bitter-sweet life is..

As i scrolled and read other ppl's blog, i somehow feels that most of them are either feeling blue or not feeling too good~ At times, would wonder y is this world filled with sadness.. Why can't everyone stays happy? Why can't this world be fair, to have an equal share of wealth, so that there'll no be famine? Hmmz.. perhaps i'm thinking too much, because without sorrow, people will never understand the joy of happiness~ Wouldn't it be a pity if every happiness is taken for granted? Life would be even more meaningless..

Sounds like a contradiction. So I tink it would be best to have a balance between both.. However, people tends to indulge themselves in sorrow when they experience one, and tends to treat happiness as a temporary joy.. Therefore it seems that they are more things to be sad of, than things to be happy about..~ If only everyone can change their mindset, if only people can forgive and forget, including myself...~

Well, seriously i duno what i'm talking about either.. Just having a sudden mixed feeling within me that i need to let it off... To ppl who are sad out there, treasure little things around you that can make you happy, before you start to lose those little treasures as well..~

I've added music to my blog!!!!! =D so happy!!! ThX to Ai rEnz!!!!! wAhz... love u so much!!! hehez... tao yanz..~ I know i sound abit ermz, exaggerated... But muz understand that i'm a computer idiot, so this is considered a feat for me! hehez... Well... Dun yawnz wor... i'm really happy! I have lots of cheng jiu gan one... heEz.. =p

Reincarnation: You are nice enough to go to heaven,
but Earth won't be as fun without you. So you
shall come back as someone or something else.
As a real optimist and lighthearted person, you
always see the good in things. People probably
respect you for your wonderful personality and
love for life. People like you make the world a
happier place (please rate my quiz)


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Juz changed my blog layout all by myself! =pPp haha.. had sudden rush to do so.. Slowly following the previous format.. However my shoutbox's gone! =(

Had a great day yesterday! Basically playing SP for the whole day, aft which went out with my clique in sch~ We went to Tony Roma for dinner!! Its my first time going there.. wow! Damn full..~~ I started feeling full aft the apppetizer! =p Den came the main course and 2 side dishes.. Hahaz, couldn even finish the main course! Hmmz... but not bad, the food's nice and the ambience's cool~! hehez.. Thx to Janice who recommend us there! =)

Ben came to join us halfway.. Went to highlight his hair to ash? hahaz... okie lahz, not too bad~ Still looks like ben lahz.. =p Walked all the way to Bugis Junction aft tt and took some wonderful neoprints!! Hahaz.. Those machines are so cute! we dun even have enuf time to think of the poses.. =p Yeahz, had a great time! Went home with dear aft tt cos he happened to be at Boat Quay~~

Hmmz.. Called Fiona immediately aft i reached home, haben even settle down at tt time.. Spoke to her for abt 1hr30mins... Til 12+am.. Hmmz..~ Fiona dun be sad.. There are some ppl who knows how to understand you, some do not.. So hope u dun get bothered by those comments that those ppl gave u.. U are unique as who u are, tt's wat i tink~! You are not er xin, those ppl who said tt to u are worse themselves... So, cheer up okiez?~ Its not the end of the world, u can call me or anything when u need someone to talk to.. =)

Have such mixed feelings aft the talk..~ Hmmz.. Left me no mood for SP.. =p But its okie, it lets me reflect lots of things.. Environments are definitely diff from JC and poly.. Because i seldom see such things happen in poly, perhaps we have less activities..? Hmm.. Anyway, in a misunderstanding, there are owaz both parties at fault.. Although most ppl are not by ur side, stay firm to urself.. =) I'll support u too!!

I'm still undecisive of whether going to Biomedical Tech or Pharmaceutical Sci..~ =( I thought i've made up my mind on going to PS aft discussing with my mum.. But......~~~ Haiz haiz.... It is juz too Chemistry!! Argh... i duno.. i'm going crazy if i have to make major choices again and again....

Everything went well yesterday aft i called him..~ Hee.. Well, sometimes its better to lay down ur pride to be happy, rather than holding on to it and sulk all day~~ Haha.. Well well.. =)

Been feeling quite sick..~~ Came down with sore throat and flu. Although it seems minor, flu does make someone feel so lethargic! haiz.. hopefully it'll go away by tml.. Cos we'll be going to Tony Roma?? Haha..

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ME!

oH.. Happy 3rd moNth to myself~~~ Really happy huh? Today gonna stay home and chiong SP all the way.. haha.........

Had a bad sore throat and today's my first impt day.... So.... Severe stomach cramps and my legs can't make it anymore..~ Hmmz.... plus a good attitude given to me in the wee morning.. Oh well, wat a wonderful day~~~

Hmmz.... early in the morning ... bright start in the day! Not going to waste this beautiful day... SP wo lai le!!

Been having mixed feelings.. Something's juz there to affect my mood. However, things had already happened though i didn know what it was, and it happened quite long ago.. Prehaps i'd juz leave it as it is, shldn't waste anymore of my time to find out wat is it.. Get a life and move on eh?

SheeWee told me i got into BMS ydae..~ Oh well, no feelings.. I'm more concerned abt the 2nd selection, hopefully can get into BMT, or else it'll be a dead end for me.. Tml's last paper, A&P, is a hell subject~! I couldn memorise such dry stuff without any understanding~ Biology doesn turn out to be as interesting as i thought, its too factual!~ Hmmm.. i still prefer it to chemistry though.. =p

In life, u can't please everyone........ Just appreciate those who knows how to appreciate you..~

You'd turn into a Snowleopard! Like a snowleopard
you are quiet, shy and not seen much and find
it hard to talk to people, but dont really mind
being by yourself. However once you have gotten
over your shyness and are relaxed you are so
different it can be scary! You have a few close
friends who can grasp your strange ways. You
are generally laid back but when you get angry
you get angry and can be very vicious and a
force to be recond with, though few people ever
see this.


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Valentine's Day..~~

Shld i say happy?? haha... no lahz, cos i cried alot on this day...~ The reason is... i'm too touched........ Very very touched.... nth cld explain such feelings..... :')

I-guides' finally over~ The open house has ended, all our effort has been paid off....~ Finally... getiing so exhuasted from 12-14Feb. Woke up everyday at 6am+, work non-stop in school til 7-8pm... Exhausted, didn even have a chance to eat during the 8hrs or so... When i reach home its around 10-11pm..~ And the next day it started all over again! Phew.. thot i cldn't take it anymore... but, its over huh..~ Good experience! However i prefer the workshops than the actual open house...~ Feeling tired even now, my legs are useless... =p

Missed out many things in life during these 3days, although its juz 3days..~ I couldn't use my phone, i cldn't ans my phone when ppl called.. Nvm, i duno wat i'm toking abt.. =p

Happy valentine's day to all!!~ =) take care... *oh ya, dun even have time to wish everyone a happy vdae~~ * haiz.. Anywae take care everyone..~ Hope u all have a great day !!! =) i had one.... =D

Haiz.. i dun know how to console people when they are depressed, or when they are crying.. I dun even know how to respond to them. All i know was to stay by their side and watch them cry, sometimes i'll juz cry with them... I'm not a good speaker, and i'm not at all cut out to be a counsellor... Something very unhappy happened today, and i wish for u my fren, to be well and happy again...... =)

Hmmz... went home aft that. Meet dear at tampines interchange to go home together.. Surpisingly, this is the first time i actually called him myself, to ask him to wait for me. Usually he is the one who call me, and i'll refuse or reluctanly agree.. =p Because the thought of him waiting for me make me very impatient when doing things, i dun like the feeling of rushing things... Hmmz.. but today, it seems that i wanted to see him~ perhaps after today's incident, i tend to count myself fortunate, and treasure the "honeymoon" as long as i can........ Life is unpredictable...

I made my own chocolate today! Haha.. Messed up the whole kitchen, and my mum juz finished scolding me.. =p The chocolate i made at first was so ugly!! Totally "cannot face people" !!! Haha... I intended to throw them away, but i thought it wld be waste.. decided to let my family members taste the ugly ones, made a few nice ones for Shee Wee they all to try tml.. =p However due to shortage of chocolate cos of inexperience, i've only managed to make 4 good ones! So... one for each? =p Muz gimme comments k! hehe...

Also tried using a heart-shaped mould to fry a heart-shape egg.. Hmmz.. Success! Haha.. Very happy! =p All these preparations are for a special day~!! =D Well, i've busied enuf of all these things.. Time to study again! Argh..!!! oh ya.. i'm in big trouble now, REAL BIG!!! sth happen juz now.....~ and it wasn't my fault! kaoz...

Okay! i've made my choice... Finally chosen Biomedical Science aft few miserable days of struggling!! There's one thing which i'm worried of, which is the 2nd selection, which will be shortly after the term break. The 2nd selection is to choose the track we want to go into, Biomedical Tech (BMT), Pharmaceutical Sci (PS), and Pharmaceutical Tech (PT)...

Well.. I'm very worried cos BMT is a hot demand, and again, the school will sort out according to ur preference as well as ur GPA score for last semester! Well.. my last sem results really sux... I'm very very scared if i'm posted to PT. Cos i can never take Chemistry!

I'm taking a risk by choosing BMS... But at least if i get into BMT, i know i wun regret it.. Rather than choosing Biotech and regret it forever, because i never want to do research.. Well well.. it all depends on my luck now.. Wish me well.. Who can i blame now? No one except myself... Blame myself for being too slack....... Sobz

I'm very sad.... very very sad.......... Haiz....... I hate this.......... Stupid character of mine............ Okie now i know u have a temper as well... Shall not test it anymore......
Stupid Survival Project........... Cos the drift between us, but sometimes i find that u are too serious............watever............

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I really duno what i want.... What shld i do??? I'm totally torn between Biotechnology and Biomedical Science. We have to make our decision latest by Tuesday! that's abt 2 days time??? Well, i really duno.. Both have their pros and cons, and i have interest in both as well...

I came in with the mindset to go Biomed, and under the track of BioMed Tech. However aft all the briefings and stuff abt the both diplomas, i'm really torn in between!!! Biotech's modules seems to be more interesting, dealing with a wider scope of subjects. Biomed tech deals with mostly human stuff... Well, both are all bio-based, which i prefer as compared to Chemistry.. However...... I really duno.. Both are fine with me, my only concern is that i'll regret if i choose any one of them..

Haiz.. what shld i do?? This concerns my future!! No kiddin matter... In a real dilemma..... Sick and tired.. But, the thought of going to do research aft graduating from Biotech turns me off..... Furthermore, SIP (attachment) usually put Biotech students in Tuas.. Which totally sux. Haiz... can't imagine myself working in Tuas for the rest of my life?? BMT is more human-health related, mostly working in hospitals or clinical environment.... But.. TP's BMT is a small fly compared to NP's.... So, the future doesn't hold much? Guessed we couldn say tt as well, cos if MOE dun need us, y let TP set up this course rite? ARGH! nvm me... duno what i'm toking abt! Sobz.. Dear keep encouraging me to go BMT, cos he's going there... duh!~

I had difficulty falling alseep last nite aft playing Survival Project.. Oh ya, we've influenced Wendy to play too! Haha.. she enjoyed it! Looking forward to see Janice today!! =p Alrite.. come back to this, last nite was hell... My stomach hurts, it was terrible, i was crying to myself in the wee hours of the morning. It was all dark and everyone was alseep.... I tot i was dying.. I kept praying tt i can juz fall asleep quickly and forget the pain.. Aft abt half an hour of struggling, finally there was peace... Sort of understand how the cancer-strikened patients or any other suffering ones would find peace aft they've died... At least they wun feel the pain anymore....

I woke up 6+ in the morning, wanted to go for lec cos i dun feel like skipping, esp Biochem...~ But the pain came back the moment i opened my eyes.. Cannot stand it anymore, and had one more diarrhoea before i went back to slp... went to see the doc at ard 10+, luckily its not serious..... Phew.. This dragged since Tuesday, and i had enuf...

Mango, Monkey and Watermelon didn go for lec as well!!!! OMG.. i've learnt abt it when Shee Wee sms that she playing SurP now.. ard 10+ -_-! Haha.. God....~ I'm sure ppl would tink tt we chuan tong hao de..~ Haha~ Watever... i going play liao... =p

Haiz.. been feeling not well the whole day... my stomach hurts from the whole morning til now, it juz come and go.. It occurs quite a few times.. Haiz..~~~ Feel very nausea ydae, and therefore skipped my dinner.. Now is this, and i didn really eaten sth since morning.. Juz dun have any appetite..~ I'm feeling very hungry, but i juz dun have the craving for anything... My stomach feels weird all this while, even now...~ =(

Well.. Hopefully it'll be gone soon..~ Hmmz.. today i've finally made up my mind to which track i'm going to in yr2.. I'll choose Biomedical Tech under Biomedical Science..~ At least i have more chance in getting into that i guess.. I'm thinking of Biomolecular Science under Biotechnology, but guess the chances are too slim.. Further more my 1st Sem GPA point sux... Haiz..~ Hopefully i can get into BMT.. Well, tt leaves til the nex time...

Still gonna study for tml's maths quiz..~ Studied haflway through...... How am i suppose to study under this condition?? Ohh.. my health's getting weaker..Sobz.. Perhaps there's too much E.Coli?? Haha!~ Oh.. plz.. go away soon!

Hmmz! Enough of sad entries... Or else xueping will tink tt i'm so sad nowadays.. Hehe... Not really.. juz some angry words and moments of anguish..~ =p Basically been fine nowadays, life's rather perfect..~ I-guides experience is totally awesome~ =) And been fine with everything.... Hmmz.. thx xueping for ur concern~! =D

Family's been good so far...Come tink of it, things had improved tremendously as compared to before.. Ppl who knew me since sec sch, know tt my parents often quarrel.. Almost to the verge of divorcing.. Had quite alot probs in the past, when sometimes i had to cry myself to slp. Things really calmed down in these recent yrs, can feel more love between them too... Really really grateful.. =)

Watch hamtaro today as well... Hehe.. Their favourite line is " Today's been a really good day, but tml will be even better! Right? hamtaro? " Haha.~ Yeahz... Hope tml will be a better day! ^-^