I've been going out early in the morning til late at nite EVERYDAY for these 2 weeks! Been busy planning and packing our stuff for out first sales at Bedok South Sec. Today is the 2nd day, but i'm already feeling very tired since Day 1~!

Day 0 (Tuesday)
Went down school to pack the rest of the rock candies, after that went to Bedok South for briefing and mingled with the student leaders. The school hopes that we can allow the students to run the stalls to promote some entrepreneur experience, of cos we agree. Haha.. tink it was much easier to sell since their own friends will be supporting them.

We left around 3pm, and went all the way from Bedok South to West Mall... zzz! Sianz.. Yeah, went to Applestiz to collect all equipments, ingredients, apples!!! We couldn't carry at first! It was very heavy!!! But no choice as dear duno the route to west mall... Lol.. Was kinda funny when we walk a few steps and have to rest.. pengz.. really qi liang... -_-! Went back all the way to Ang Mo Kio together, where dear parked his car... So we drove Jan and Wendy back to tampines, before we head home. Drained from the carrying of heavy stuff!!!!!!!!!

Day 1(Wednesday)
Our first day at Bedok South.. Was feeling kinda funny at first, but our sales slowly pick up and were motivated! Hahaz... But it was too hot, the location we are at has NO FANS at all!!! And it was sort of open, and the sun shine directly in at afternoon. It was unbearable. There were so many demands for applestiz esp after sch, we couldn't stop working. We are fortunate to have the student leaders to help us, they are really really gd!! Haha.. love them! They are also approachable.. Hees... After everything i tot i could die.. Heat+carrying things in the morning+ busy the whole day.......

Due to insufficient choc, i have to go down to West Mall (again). Good lahz, Jan and Wendy went to bedok interchange, and today they told me they took a nap. Walauz... I was really tired and moody, and travelled from tampines to bukit batok, and i STAND all the way!!! The journey back is like hell also!!!! The block of choc is quite heavy!! No seats at all.. and they told me they napped, zzz..... lol. I reached home at 8+.......... Lucky dear helped me at west mall.

Day 3
Today! Had usual fun selling the things.. the students are really supportive. Was kinda upset abt sth at first, but aft that i guess it was ok. Hmmz.. Today's weather better than yesterday's cos it rained in the morning. But was still as humid and hot in the afternoon. Our apples have sold out already, and was feeling motivated to see the students getting disappointed. Actually we wanted to end our sales at Bedok South, but due to popular demand, we decided to go back tml.

and AGAIN!!! We went to West Mall. Zzz.. i can really die in the travelling. Esp when there r no seats. My feet is so pain now~! Was telling them that i can choose to go home and nap, since i went ydae, and jan told me they'll go today.. =p but u know, i couldn't outsay them de mahz... haha.. go lor. zzz... tired! Very very drained!! Wish i could have a day rest... haiz.. But most imptly, i had fun working at bedok south, and guess that it all matters.. =)=)

Shall reserve all my energy for tml's last day of sales! Jia you..~!

Today is the 22nd of April, so.. HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO WENDY!!! =p

Hees.. went out with deardear after piano today! Hmmz... Finally my teacher got a surprise that i mastered the 2nd piece, and she didn't nag me today! Wahahaha..! Or else she owaz nag everytime i went.. zzz... =p

Went to City Hall today, and ate lunch at Nooch! hees.. ok lah, i mean the food is not really that special oso.. hehes.. I miss Thai Express, shall go there and eat one day! =) Other than that we just went shopping around, hoping to buy some decorations for my deardear's car.. Hmmz, sadly can't find any nice tissue cover even when we went to PS.. Nvm lahz, at least we dragged ourselves to Heeren, and bought 3 turtles from Action City!! They are soooooooo lovely cutey!! =D Hahaz.. We were actually very tired! Really very very tired, but i drag dear there just to see my turtles! =pPp yeah.. i bought them for dear! hehes.. happy! Got papa, mama and baby turtle.. =p

Oh, bought Mrs. Fields nibblers today. Ok lahz, all the nibblers are soft cookies. Not really my type.. Hmmz.. Feeling lactic-acided!! Haha.. thanks to ydae's Hi/Lo(aerobics) class at Amore! Feeling refreshed and exercise-ed.. haha...

When i felt that the project was a hopeful event, suddenly was demoralised again. Sigh.. i just hope everything can be a success at Bedok South Secondary School...... Jia you everyone!

Happy day! Practised my piano for the whole morning and afternoon, *achievement*~! Hees.. finally mastered my 6-pages 2nd piece! Phew.. Exam will be in June, and i dun even can play smoothly on the 1st page. Today finally settle the whole song, juz needed polishing! =) Hees..

Went to meet my sec sch frenz around 630pm @ Heeren. Was supposed to be our 2/3^00 class gathering, hmmz, but turn out to be a weird combi, well, amkss gathering i think? Hahaz.. Happy to see them! =) We ate at Marche, but i think its because of my flu that i do not have really huge appetite, although i'm not full.. Hmmz.. hees! Only manage to reach home around 11pm+, lucky got deardear to pei me home *muackz*! And thx xp for the little card!! *hugz!*

To all my poly frenz, i think we shld count our blessings. If we think we have to study so much thing in only 1 sem, abt 3mths, it's really worse in Uni!!! My bro had Life Science exam today. And he told me all the questions, which i think its SOOOOO difficult! He only have 1 sem, and the topics included range from Cell Bio, to microbio, to genetics, to bioethics, to bioengineering, to immunology, to bioinformatics etc!! OMG!!! and they are not brief at all... Zzz! We are really insufficient!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our little cell bio or microbio can't even compared to his 1 subtopic, zzz.... so count our blessings ppl... =)

After watching NKF show, i still feel very lucky. Whatever is going to happen, i guess we are still more fortunate. I'm slowly adapting and accepting the fact that this nightmare is going to happen, at least, i'm used to this mood.. I can't be merry at this time, but at least, i dun feel that sad..

However, i think my dad is very affected. Burden will be alot heavier on him.. He dun go to coffee shops every night til the wee hours, he came back way before 11pm now. His appetite changed greatly all of a sudden, from eating rubbish every now and then when i duno how many meals he can eat per day, until a little porridge can last time the whole day.. He barely touch his dinner... It was so sudden. I guess my brother aren't aware of this due to his exam period, sometimes even when i felt so affected and lonely when my parents told me, like the world's crashing on me, i will tell myself to remember that someone is there to accompany me. Haha, quite bad huh? Duno, juz feel that even if i lost my direction, i can have someone elder than me that i can follow, i guess i'm not independent at all.. I'm a follower, never a leader.. =p

On the lighter note, we went on spree-ing in Citigem juz now. Finally bought my first set of genuine jewellery! =) I bought myself a chain with pendant, a pair of earrings, a ring and a bracelet! All shiny with many diamonds... =) My mum bought a pendant! Yeah.. We spent more than 1hr in at Plaza Singapura Citigem. Oh ya, saw jaime and her bf.. haha.. To think that we can spree on these expensive items in this difficult times.. lolz.. Yeah, almost $2000 spent. Quite little huh?? Hahaz, cos i chose all cheaper items, so that i can buy a set... Hees... It was really so dreamy! I didn expect to buy all these, no mental preparation at all.. Haha.. Yeah, we have a $1688 voucher... lolz. My dad's long service award and birthday voucher together.. =) Keep FORCING myself to buy when the budget is not reached.. lolz. Shuang man!

I guess this may the last time we can afford to spree like that..............

I grew up with a luxury life, i shld say its luxury. From as young as i'm 2years old, i have a maid to see to all my needs.. I need not do any housework, i was like a princess. My family was not really wealthy, however, we could still afford minor luxury. People used to call me "Qian Jin Xiao Jie" in pri sch, juz because i have a maid.. My maid only left us when i was in Pri 6, by that time, i've already grown up quite abit..

My family status did not stop growing. I should say both of my parents are lucky ones. They are selected from many others to be promoted. My mum was promoted twice, to now an Area Supervisor who oversees about 10 outlets, my dad was promoted to be overall in-charge of production area.. Therefore, from a 3 room flat in Shun fu road, we upgraded to a 4-room flat in Serangoon.. I was pretty excited as a 5 year old, because that was a new flat we've bought.. 5years later, we upgraded to 5-room flat... We have little worries with financial expenses on daily livings, except of additional things like piano, or going to tour at times.....

From my 19years of life, i'm owaz living in such environment.. Xp knew that there's a box in my house that my mum owaz top up with money, to be taken by my bro and I.. We need not ask our parents for money, they'll owaz put it there for us to take. Of course, they trusted us. I owaz felt lucky when i knew some of my friends' household income was not even as half as mine do, at least i count my blessings....

However, things are turning bad now. Economy was down. My mum just told me a bad news, or rather, my parents. I duno why they keep telling me, because i was really affected. I have to act as if i felt nth at all, but deep down in my heart i felt so miserable. I know, even if this nightmare really come true, i'm still quite fortunate as compared to many others in the world.. But, i have never really encounter little poverty, i really need some time to adapt... From dinner time til now, they've never stop mentioning it.. I guess its the 100th time my mum sighing, i felt so miserable... People who strike lottery are those who suddenly have everything when they do not have, but ours is a total opposite. We have everything, suddenly, we juz have to let go.....

I dun tink i wana further my education anymore. Everything is not going as well... My bro is still in Uni, 3 more years to go.. I wan to find a job after i grad, the rest can wait i guess. I'm still worried abt my piano fees, its really a huge burden..... plus our never-ending monthly instalment of my house, and a car... I wonder if my dad can take it..

This incident has sort of strengthen our family bond together, my dad is rather encouraging. I duno, perhaps i'm useless, i juz feel like crying. Even if i grad, my pay with be only $1400?? I just hope time can pass faster now. Sorry if i dun feel like toking abt this with someone, i guess not everyone can understand right now.. I know i'm still fortunate, i juz need time to adapt.

Haiz, i had high fever just 3 weeks ago, with initial temp of 39.5 degrees celsuis. Now it came back again. However, this time it is the flu virus!! I can really lost up to 10L of mucus now, and if i'm going to sneeze any further, my nose will fly out~ Bth... At least the initial temp now is 38 degress celsius, is that called an improvement?? My ears are blocked now, and felt weak, and i can't sleep at all last nite!!!!! Immense headache this morning, which i thought this is the worst headache i experienced in my 19yrs of life... but alot better now... zzz... Why am i so prone to these stupid forever nothing-better-to-do virus, i hope they die a tragic death!

Fortunately i do not have any meetings today. Hmmz, but will be an agony to go piano later.. Plus its gonna rain soon. Haiz~

Watched The Pacifier ydae with deardear, and the movie is sooooooo nice!!! =D Its funny and yet heart-warming. =)=)

These 2 days had been happy days!! =) hees... Ydae went to Causeway Point with deardear to watch Spongebob Squarepants! Finally... However, was sad-ed cos i think we missed around 15mins of the show!!!! I saw on newpapers that the show starts at 5.55pm, so we didn check carefully when we bought the tix, jus take it for granted. Sigh.. in the end it starts at 530pm!!!! Argh........ =( Nvm lahz.. haha.. happy! The show was quite short, and SUPER DUPER LAME!!! hahaz.. but was funny lah! and i like it! =) I want to watch Hufflelump too!!!

Before that we went to take pics! Hehes.. this is our favourite one... =p



Today met up with wendy and janice to discuss the project again. Qi si wo, waited 30mins for them. All becos of the big shot wendy lee...!!! haha! if u see this, den i'm gonig to nag u again! Nag her say i lor sor, dun nag her make me wait til slp..!!! Zzz.. Yeah, basically discussed the proposal and confirmation of our plan, and we managed to contact the suppliers for rock chocolates and test tubes. Hopefully we can carry out our plan asap. Tml will be going down to Bugis and West Mall...!! Happy to be so busy!! hehes.. =p

Juz now went to my weekly kickboxing session! Today's was more intense i felt.. haha.. and during the process i felt kinda tired, as in, really sweat it out.. den after that, i felt as if i didn exercise at all.. -_-! I have a weird body.. haha~ Yeah... den took that 1hour 88 home so that i can meet deardear!!!! Qi si wo le!! haha... all deardear's fault!! =p if i take train, i can reach home in 30mins!! but poor him have to run home after that cos of the big rain... hehe.. but i'm happy to see deardear, so its worth it!! *muAckz*!

Today is a happy day! Things are turning better, and my moody mood has cleared up! Except for an expected Big Aunt to give me all the fatigue and cramps.... zzz... Despite that, still went out with my parents to Chinatown! Walked non-stop from 2pm til 6pm... Hehe... Another long hiking man, den my mum keep complaining~ hehe.. yeah was tired, but happy too! =)

Finally found rock chocolates, and thankfully there's the supplier's contacts on the label! Hees.. However, i still haven found the courage to call them =/ i'm too shy la, cnnt blame.. =p hees... kk that's abt it, duno wat to write oso...

P.S. Twins Album rocks! =)

This skin is not very me i know, but its too cute for me to resist.. lolz. shall put it up for awhile..=p Went to jog in the morning because of the fats that are accumulating.. =/ The weather was fantastic for sleep this morning, but i dragged myself up at 730am.. -_-! Hmmz... not bad, at least i'm aching now.. =)

Went to YMCA for meeting at 1130am.. Haha.. had another free breakfast reception again! =) Was telling my friends that we are like the Board of Directors, like so big shot like that lol.. The function room design is so unexpected, tot it will be like our tutorial room.. lolz~ Hmmz.. Met our mentor from YMCA, and am grateful that these people are really resourceful.. hopefully the project is a success.. I dun really aim for being the top 3 for prizes, i juz wan to enjoy the process of the project, guess that's all matters.. =)

Aft that went PS idling den go home.. didn buy anything. Hmmz, i've sent a mail to both Famous Amos and Mrs. Fields, hopefully they can reply soon.. that's all abt it. If anyone has any lobang to find supplier for baking nice cookies, or any ovens to lend, tell me.. =p e-mail for carelicious has been set up.

My results:

Basic Pharmacology B+
Pharmaceutical Marketing & Legistration B+
Pharmaceutical Chemistry B
French B
Pharmaceutical Analysis 1 C+

GPA 2.81 (increase 0.02 only)


I'm so tired. i shall not aim anymore. First is Fpath, now is Bpharm. I'm so disappointed.

Was actually a happy day. Met fiona together and we backpack singapore.. lol. Bought Twins CD, happy. That's abt it. Mood sux right now. sry.

will be getting our results tml, however, this is the only sem which i felt nth. Perhaps i have lowered down expectations of myself already.. hmmz, wonder if i have made a right decision. Is it really good the give up so easily? Well.. i duno the ans myself. I just hope i can pass my PA1, the rest aren't a concern i guess... Life is much more than academic achievements.. =)=)

If i gonna receive an F tml for PA1, please dun talk to me okay? At least let me wallow in self-pity for a day... =)

Am feeling really moody now, duno y, dun ask me. Everything just came into my mind suddenly. Thought of all those bad things that happened today, really kinda moody. Anywae, today was supposed to be a happy day, except i miss dear too much, 4days didn see him already.

This morning was our first briefing for the Citibank-Youth project with Ann-Marie. The briefing was not bad, and heard some motivational words that really lift me up.. Yupx! Was feeling rather honoured that our project was among the 15 chosen by TP, and later lower down to the 9 groups that is officially chosen by Citibank itself.. I duno, perhaps i was too bored in the holidays that i felt so enthu, while the rest felt nth.. Hmm, nvm. I just want to do sth for others, as well as gaining some satisfaction for myself before i die, i duno, i have a feeling that i dun live a long age. Life isn't about enjoying only i guess, i will regret if i just pass on like that without doing anything meaningful in my life.

After meeting we had our own group discussion. Ideas are generated but we are kinda stuck with the things we are going to prepare.. well, we still have time to source for it. Today was a lazy day because of the rain, and i have to wake up at 8am, which is an agony to me.. -_- I left tampines around 4pm to join xp and yc at toa payoh for my first kickboxing lesson.. Yeah! IT WAS GREAT!! Hahaz.. Was tired of cos, but i guess i didn sweat as much.. perhaps 1ml?? -_-! Duno, was feeling cold instead.. haha... i'm a weird species. we will be going every tuesday at 530pm, looking forward!! =)=) After that yc went home, and xp acc me to Bishan to have out Teppan Yaki!! Hees...

Oh i was so pissed with the Entrepreneurz Market for the free booth space at J8. This programme was launched since last year, and today i queued up for soooooooo long at the Counter just to get that form. The queue was so damn long because it is a SISTIC counter... zzz.. Was so hungry! Yet have to wait for so long, and in the end, the person told me that the forms are NOT avaliable! -_-! And have to wait to June or July?! And ask me to search online and reg online if possible.. But the website told me to get the forms there!!!!!! I guess she's also not very sure. Kaoz.. Quite pissed now because J8 webby doesn't have its tel no., and CapitaMall (its management) enquire's section is down! I typed so long and the page cannot be reached. Pissed off.. duno why should i bother abt such things and make myself miserable. Nvm me, juz letting off some steam.

I'm going to call the management tml at office hours.. *Pissed*! P.S i feel soooo shiok with my back aching after exercise, it feels so GREAT!

Today is actually a happy day..~ hmmz.. but had a sudden stomach ache juz 30mins ago! Pengz.. diarrhoea for nth again.. I'm now having the aftermath, it owaz give me the feeling of wanted to go again.. really really painful juz now. Sigh..

Anywae was supposed to meet Fiona for lunch today, but i woke up too late and my mum bought breakfast/brunch for me oredi.. Aww.. So meeting was cancelled. So sorry, will have chance again.. =) Yeah, aft that went to Parkway Parade with my parents, so long din went shopping with them oredi, due to school work and exams at that time.. hehe.. was very happy.. =) Bought a pillow for myself, and tonnes of fruits!!!! -_-!

Yay, going kbox tml again. hahaz.. looking forward to the Citibank project. my frens are very supportive! =) thanks! esp fiona and xp.. =)

Went queensway with xp today. Yeah~ spent quite a bomb (at least to me, its a bomb). Finally bought my track shoes, usual price is $138, but the price was discounted to $105.. Hmmz, not bad lah, New Balance de.. I'm also not that particular abt track shoes, i mean, as long as it is comfortable and durable, i guess it doesn't matter. Haha.. Bought a Nike black sports bra as well, actually wanted to buy the white one at first, but it only left 1 M size, so i let xp have it.. haha.. i dun mind the black one, who's going to see anywae? haha.. =p And also bought a navy blue FBT shorts.. So in total, i spent abt $148.. My mum says she's not going to pay for me.. =/

Was actually quite a happy day.. Hmmz. something happened and my mood is dashed. I duno, perhaps i'm the one who shld F*** off.

Msn service is down!! =/ Felt so incovenient and weird without it.. Zzz! Went swimming today, really getting so lousy, dun wish to say it here. Haha.. Anywae duno y everytime i go swim, it ALWAYS ended up with nausea and dizziness.. -_-! It owaz happened when i'm in the pool, den bo bian have to come up.. Haiz. It happened today again, can someone tell me y??!

Aft that went to Pizza Hut for lunch! Hehe.. Yummy!! Been wanted to eat since the day i had fever, that was abt 1 week ago. hahaz. Den went to Kbox with gladys, shee wee, raymond, deardear and me.. haha.. okie lah, was not really high today. Guess everyone was tired.. I myself was getting listless and dun felt like singing halfway throughout, super off form today.. =/ hahaz.. nvm lahz, will have chance to on form again.. =)

Oh ya, today jan called and told us a good news! Our charity project for the Citibank thingy is selected! It a really MAJOR MAJOR project that we'll be running on our own. And it is done for the public, with mentors from outside... Kinda excited yet scared... hmmz.. We will be sooooo busy during the holidays! Hmmz.. good thing i never go out and find job, cos we wun have time to work oredi~! hehe. Our society to help out is Children Cancer Foundation. Please support aft we've launched our project!! =)