Dun even bother to call me. Just leave me alone and continue ur game. No use explaining to me, cos i think watever rule u have is illogical to me! U call a 2hr interval a short while? Can't steal a minute in between the games? Go marry the game lah! Freaking pissed off.

Today was one of the worst day i have...~ Early in the morning i have to face my parent's quarrel. In front of me somemore.. Man, the topic they quarrel about is so childish, which i tried to hide my smile.. But as time goes by, they become more serious. Damn. If i've known earlier, i dun wana go out with them for breakfast. Spoil my appetite. I really hate it. I dun wana go out today at first, but they really keep quarrel until i bth, and called dear immediately to ask him to acc me go out.. Sianz~ i can't stay at home lor. Always cried when they quarrel, oso duno y. The things they said to each other was really hurting.

Well, my mood was better after going out. Wanted to catch The Incredibles at first, but the timing was too late. Well.. forget it. When around TM and ate at pizza hut. Later in the evening i have to go home no choice, cos going to my cousin's bdae celebration.. Haiz, i was so reluctant to go home, i dun wana face the quarrel... Haiz. Luckily everything ended when i reached home. But i dun feel like going for the celebration. I was not very close to my paternal side cousins, generation gap perhaps. I was very anti-social with them... Always dread the time there where i sit at one corner from the beginning til going home. Today was no exception as well... Haiz. My day today is very very bad.

Felt much better after reaching home. But tml working again.. Damn sianz~ I hate to work at my dad's company liao. He made me hate it. He worked in different dept as me, and jobs assigned to me are by the fellow admin people, which he's not in charge of... Like it or not, he owaz complain my working attitude, say wat i like den work, dun like dun work. Wat the hell... i worked almost everyday except Friday off for piano lesson... He always forgot that i off on Fri, den say wat i dun wana work lahz.. Please lor, other part-timers worse lor, 1 week only come 1 time, sometimes 1 week 1 time also never come! I really hate it lor...... Today still say what, "if u work gd ppl will ask u back next time mah, u work no gd, nobody wants to call u back lah" ..... HEY! U dun even know what my job is about lor, u got no right to comment on my work leh... I always did everything that they assigned to me, wat's gd or bad?! He like it den say one lor...... Sianz man! So damn pissed off liao lor..... not the first time! And i just shoot him back, "I dun wana stick to one job for part time, i wana exp all kinds of job, and even if they beg me, i dun wana go back next holiday, cos i hated admin job and it is not my cup of tea to sit there from morning til nite..." Really damn pissed.

Hello!~ My com came alive after it went comatose for 2 days~! So i'm going to use this chance to blog or else it can go back to sleep anytime~!

Hee!~ Went to work today again, as usual. Dun feel like working today cos at first going out with liren and jiayong to watch The Forgotten~ Sigh.. But i was sick on thurs and i took an official "off", which my dad is unhappy about. Therefore, die die i have to make up today... =x So sorry~ Liren cannot make it on the evening, so it was postponed i guess~ Anywae i still have 1 week left.. =) Instead, i meet my sec sch frenz for dinner at the Somerset open area hawkers~ Hee! It was like Chomp Chomp, and the food was okay i think.. Heez. Oily, fattening and heaty! lolz.. Played childish games of the leaflets again.. -_-! Anywae! I'm always happy to have such gathering, although felt quite extra cos i'm the only one studying poly there. Sometimes i catch no ball of wat they are talking about... =/ lol... Well well..~ Overall it was a great nite! =) Hope to have our chalet soon... Hee!

Dear dear went to club with his frenz, so cnnt send me home.. =( Heez.. I was so scared to walk home alone along that dark alley~! ...... But here i am blogging safe and sound~ Hee! Yay! My work will be ending on the 30th of this month! At least i have 5days to enjoy before sch starts! Hopefully we'll be able to catch The Forgotten in time... *pray pray*

Not looking forward to Xmas too.... =( Every year was the same... Sigh......

Sigh~ Suddenly feel alot after reading my Bernice's blog. She's got her 1 week attachment at a clinic, i oso duno how she got it leh.. =p hahaz.. anywae, i tink her dept is the babies dept??? err... duno how to say la. She got to see ops going on, and some are miscarriages..... So sad. And yet doctors dun feel anything, even say "they over-reacted" when a mother-to-be broke down. I hate this world!!!!! They are be so unfeeling!!!!! I hate the society!!!! I hate human beings!!!!!! They cannot juz comment like that just becos they see cases like that everyday! They dun have the right to treat their patients like their part-and-parcel of their job! People have feelings too!!!! I HATE THEM!!!!!!!! Man... wait til their own wives got miscarriage they'll know the feeling man!

*sigh* my com going for repair tml.. Will not be able to online for many many days! haiz.. guess i'll spend my days working and working to pass time~ 4/2^2002 chalet coming, and xp desperate need help financially, manpower, and everything! Haiz... If i'm earning for my own use, i dun mind helping financially first, but my money is still being controlled, i can't possible fork out so much without getting skinned... Sigh.. Duno what to do~ =/

Wanted to blog ydae, but my com was down!!!! I can't even open the CPU for goodness sake!~ Lol.. But sometimes it is okie, like now~ =p watever it is, it's gonna crash soon~~~~ -_-

Heez! Very happy that Wee Wee got the job! Hmmz.. Qad ah, u never tell me lor... Wahz, i help u find job one lehz, y thank my dear dear instead?? Lol.. he did nth k! =pPp He only ask me whether he can work anot, cos it clashes with our 1st month anniversary.. Den i tell him i wana ask u de lehz! HUMPH! Lol... Treat me Billy Bombers lahz.. =D Lalalala*

Oh btw, i really went jogging and swimming together yesterday! Wahaha!! I overcome my inertia huh? =pPp Left me with lactic acid accumulating at my thighs and shoulders, hmm, lousy physical =( Shall do it again next friday! =) Went out with dear dear today, and he passed me my beautiful dress!!! =) heez.. Was supposed to be my 1st yr present lah. It is really a beautiful dress!!! Quite cheap, yet nice and flexible! It can be worn as a spagetti dress, a halter neck dress, or a tube dress..! But...... It wun look nice on my fleshy body.... =/ Anywae, tried on the dress and found it that it was too loose!!!!!!! It can't be worn as a tube dress anymore! It will slipped down~~~~~~ *Sigh* The only way is to wear as a spagetti dress... =/

OH MAN! I missed Singapore Idol again!!!!!!!!! Sianz!!~ I forgot about it for 2 weeks already!~ Sigh.. I hate myself!!!! ARGH! I only remember when i saw Wee's and Jan's MSN nick!!!~ It didn occur to me at all even though the Happy Fish mentioned about Sg Idol.. Haiz.... =/

It's been quite long since i've blogged. Hmmz, i did blog, but the first time i blogged, it cannot be published, which i duno the reason. Well, ydae i tried to blog, my com hanged. I tried to restart the com, but it dun seemed to respond at all... Pissed! Den i went to slp.. -_- lolz..

Yeah! Tml i need not work!! =) Hmmz.. Feel like going jogging in the morning, after that go swim. But i always have difficulty overcoming my inertia to wake up in the morning.. Haiz. I wana slim down!!! Sigh........

Saw frank's blog and suddenly felt so much... There's pros and cons working in sales line, cos u get to meet all types of customers..~ It's so sad to see ppl budgeting, especially Lemmi's stuff are so ex. But i've met 1 customer who is darn right irritaing, he's TOO calculative.. 1st nite he came, he fuss so long about the prices, who are not controlled by us. He just dun believe that we are not the boss.. -_-! What can i do?! Anywae... 2nd day he came back, with his kids and wife. He wanted to exchange everything he bought, and fuss abt this and that.. We served him for about 2 hrs in total, cos he die die dun wana top up the money to exchange! We can't possibly give him a refund, he simply take us for granted because of no restriction to exhange items. Then he was so calculative!!!! From $50+ top, he can count and minus til $9 only.. I applaude him man! Because of him we are unable to serve other customers, and many just walk away... Haiz.. He even want to scold our boss sia..... I was like "You dun wana buy u f* off!"

But something changed my feelings totally~ At nite, a malay guy (most prob non-singaporean) came in and begin exploring our shop.. It was quite funny to see him looking so interested.. Den he came up to me and say "Can u show me clothing for a 10mth old baby gal?" Den okie, i showed him the usual section, but den, he request me to do some matching for him, as long as it is cute! He emphasized that he want something really nice and CUTE! Hmmz... After serving him for some time, he actually told me that his mum juz gave birth to a baby gal 2 days ago, and he can only go home after 9 mths more. All of a sudden, i was like........... its a mixed feeling. He said he duno how big is a 10mth old baby gal, dun even noe if she's fat or thin... And he looked so interested, yet so sad as well, can see it from his eyes.. Den he told me "Sad isn't it? I have to wait for 10mths before i can go home.."I felt so sad that time, but it took me quite some time to register what he've said... Haiz. He actually wanted to buy sth for his baby sister when he can go home, by then his sister would be 10mths old~

Well, work was okie today i guessed. Not quite used to admin job huh~ Err... Nth to say lahz, just that it was quite mian qiang to work there.. Cos they have to squeeze job for me to do. Lol... Kinda felt extra lahz..~ But data entry really took me a whole day~ Got my pay from Lemmi today! =) 500+ in total... Lol.. The boss gave me in cash sia, was so happy counting the money.. =p

What is life actually? Why do i feel so sad at times for no reason at all? Think only my dear know abt this, i can have mood swing suddenly at night, and will keep crying non-stop. lol... Once it happened, abt few mths ago, and actually called dear to cry to him.. lolz~ Few days ago just happened again, and cried til 3+am before i can slp.. lol... Also duno what am i crying... Just cry.... The next morning i woke up, i felt ridiculous. lol.. But, mood swing do kill.....

Tml will be my last day of work at Lemmi~! Yeah! =p Lol... There's no use for me to stay there cos the part-time girl is back~ Hmmz, sort of being a spare type lahz.. lolz. Though i only worked for 2 weeks, the boss refuse to gimme a the part-time rate, forcefully use my monthly pay to divide. Where's the justice?~ Nvm lahz, say le u all oso wun know tt kind of "bu shuang".. Haiz. Today's work sooooo busy!!!! Busy til i was so pissed!~ Sales line is like tt i guess... Suan le~ It'll be over soon... =)

I'll be starting another job on Monday!!! =p Hehe... At my dad's company lahz~ Haha.. Admin cum some helper job~ Hehe~! 1hr is $5.50, 8.30-6.15pm.. Hmmz! Exactly same working time as my dad, tt means we go work together, and go home together! Lol.. Can save alot on transport! =p Hee! The job's very good sia! Actually they need helper urgently today, but i can't, so i can request to make up on monday, and they agreed! Heez.. The timing is very flexible! It's not fixed as well, mayb 1 week a few times... Sort of "when they need you, they'll call u" Hmmz~~ Nice nice! Can play and work at same time~~ =) And i can watch all my TV shows~~!!!!!! =D The only bad thing is i'll be working alone, hopefully they need more ppl and i can call Wee to work with me~ hahaz.. No need scared kana bully oso lahz, cos i think my dad is in charge of that department... =p

Ydae had a great time going out with deardear!! Heez! He bought me a very beautiful dress which i like it alot!!!! =D 3-in-1 de.. haha! Can wear as tube dress, spag, or halter neck dress!!! Lol.. and its only $38 after 25% discount!!!! =D So happy~!! muackz muackz dear!!! Heez!

Today's work very sianz ah!~ Lol.. anywae i was late again.. Haiz, deprived of sleep for 2 weeks le, i also cnnt control lahz... Anywae only late for 20mins, it doesn't make a difference in United Square lahz, still 0 sales when i knock off at 7.30pm. Lol~~ =p Early in the morning, the boss sent 3 big bags of clothes and stuff, kaoz, have to take stock and replenish everything, including folding etc etc... So sianz man~ Did 1 bag for 2hrs... =/ So sickening ... Argh.. so sianz~ Haiz.. i'm trying to push myself to adapt liao, dun wana complain so much lahz, anywae will be working til 18th only, the auntie suddenly v gd sia.... Haha, Paragon is undergoing renovation la, therefore currently overstaff, haha~ get many days of off-days!!! Including tml, thurs, nex monday... etc etc.. =pPp Yeah! Although have to work back to after the 18th for the 4 days she postponed, i also dun mind la.. =p Sort of got used to the job liao, although still can't tolerate United Square~ Lucky for me, my days ahead are all at Tampines Mall... Phew~ =)

Missed out many things in life after working... =/ haha.. thx tt auntie who let me off at 730pm, therefore i can watch my Ren Wo Ao You! =) Heez.... Anywae, i hope to restore my energy tml, but duno whether am i able to restore all in one day~ Haiz.. Cos every Fri breaks i also went out, so no time to sleep oso... Hmmz, shall make use of tml~~~~ =)