Today is indeed a tiring day. Duno why, feel so tired suddenly in the morning. Its like a fatique. Duno how to describe, juz feel that everything becomes so heavy suddenly. Even the trays.. -_-! Haiz.. wat's happening? Lost concentration, everything was like blank, and i felt that i couldn't think at all. Hmmz.. mayb isit hypoglycemia? hahaz.. things turn better after lunch.

Coop up whole day at the pharmacy. Nth interesting. Goods came. Busy unloading and packing since morning til i knock off, still got a big pile left. So tired. Aft tt went dinner with deardear, wanted to catch a movie but J8 doesn't have it. =x

Tml going Sentosa to soak up in the sun! Hopefully i have enuf energy for tml's activities. I hope its just the flu that i'm down with few days ago. Yeah, its just the post-symptoms. U know, i'm paranoid. Lol..

Anywae had fun ydae at my grandad's birthday party at a restaurant at the Civil Service Club. I love my family, relatives and cousins soooo much! It was really a fun and happening time. Cos of the wedding held in the restaurant, we are given a VIP room to isolate ourselves. Therefore, the whole big place is owned by us only, and a big screen karaoke! Too bad its all oldies.. hahaz.. one of my uncle is sooooo funny! =D Its been such a long time since i really laughed.. =) I hope we can go on a tour together some day, all of us. =) Love u guys!

You dun have to be so nasty do you?! Does it make u feel any good by being so sarcastic, by displaying ur "superiority" in front of me?! Can't u see i've already put in so much effort?! 11 pages of proposal, i dun get any credit from u. The rest of the ppl's proposal is only a few pages, and u juz tell me that mine is too short. Ok, i shld be sort of grateful to u anywae, for making my MP so detailed and clear. But please stop ur bossiness and nastiness will you?! Do you need to say "you dun wan to start early its ur own prob, den u no need to grad" Do you have to say such thing?! Wat kind of sup are u to say such thing?!!! I was so damn upset and pissed off at tt time, so are u feeling a bit happier?! wendy ong wee ling, stop trying to act big here. I remind u again, i juz grad in 2004, reg in 2005. Mind ur own status. Be nice to others, who knows, they may be ur superior in the future. Anywae, whether i will grad or not is totally out of ur concern. THANKS for ur concern anywae, i tink i shld be disappointing u.

Anywae, i'm beginning to love my job. Why muz it be this way?! When life is getting better, we have to let go of it. Sighz.. anywae really glad tt u guys come into my life. Life was hard initially, but at least things do turn out better. However, everytime tt medusa comes in, my heart can sank... haiz.

I will miss SP73 except wendy ong. Thx for all the guidance, fun and laughter. I'll miss the picking and packing, i'll miss the arrangement of the drugs there, I'll miss the 11am-130pm peak hour, i'll miss packing ward medications and stat doses, i'll miss my ward 73 and 76, i'll miss doing all the returns, i'll miss the "looking forward to 530pm at the clock" everyday with nana, i'll miss the PTs there.

Change skin again!! Cos the one previously have sth wrong with the codes! This one oso quite nice lahz.. =p

Hmmz.. happy day! So relieved after completing my proposal, although i didn any feedback at all. None, not even bad ones. Seems that they dun appreciate my effort huh? But who cares, its the sch who will grade the project rite? Sent 2 e-mails regarding survey and proposal, still no one reply. Great isn't it? Wat is RESPONSIBLE preceptor. Just my luck to meet her, and juz her luck to meet me too... hahaz...

Today is rather a happy day. Everything went well. Came a sec 3 girl from Peicai Sec, who will be attached here for 2 days. Haha.. heard the name of the sch i almost stunned. =p dun ask me why. Hehes.. glad there's someone to talk to, but she's rather quiet, like me mah.. hahaz... Suddenly feel that SP73 ppl very nice, i mean the PTs. Was sick this morning and 1 was so concerned, so motherly. Asked me to pop in 2 Ascorbic Acid and whether i'm running a fever. Beginning to like it there, but only when she's not around. =p I hope this doesn't juz end today, hope it'll last til the time i leave.

Letting myself to take a break today. To all fellow attachies, hope you guys have fun over at work. Stress may come along, but may end as well. I'll get my fair share of stress after this ordeal, very soon. Zzz.. tml's doom's day.

Stumbled upon this skin which i tink its soo cute! hahaz.. but my turtle is cuter. this turtle colour is too dark.. dun look like real turtle.. =p it shld be green.. hahaz..

Nth much to write. Normal day today, so shld i consider happy? hahaz.. no sad lor. oh ya, but i'm very happy for my deardear! =p

Rushing proposal soon. Feel so sianz now. 2 weeks of log book not written. haiz.. dun feel like starting any engine now.

3 more weeks in SP73! Hope it flies......

Today is quite a pleasant day! Except i forgot to bring my matric card to sch! Haiz.. the ppl there dun let me go into the swimming pool. I got my bus pass he oso dun let me.. haiz. so sry emily, make you have to walk so long with me to bedok swimming complex. hahaz.. anywae had fun swimming today! Love the medium pool.. =p But i'm sooooooooooo slow! hahaz. but i swim juz to cut fat, so its ok lah.. =p

Aft tt met wee to have lunch tog at Sumo House, den walk walk awhile before i go piano. Dozed off on the bus lor!! And i slept on another girl's shoulder!! So sorry.. she look at me like so fierce like tt. lucky its time for me to alight when i realized that.. argh.. hahaz. Practice alone for 1 hour, finally grasp a little of the Autumn Crocus. Its a nice song.. =) Didn know y i hate it at first.. hahaz..finally can fixed a 3rd song le. Keep changing and changing and changing! Even i'm so tired of myself. hahaz.. yupz.. =)

Later having online test at 8pm. haiz. sianz. actually i dun mind.. juz sianz to do project. Stupid wendy ong, keep hinting me to go NUS lib. Auntie ah, u know NUS very far not. Yeah, like wee says, y not juz pitch a tent there?! Really lor.. So pissed off! Keep sms-ing me from ydae til this morning, til i dun wana reply. Who cares man... -_-! u tot i 24 hrs no need slp one ah? Everyday do project only ah?! I got assignments to do, got log book to write, prescription log to finish besides this project lor! Stop pressing me! I'm going next friday and that's fixed!!! No matter wat u say.. unless u go there for me lah! Idiot!

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 40%

Envy: 20%

Greed: 20%

Pride: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

Hahaz.. just received a testimonial from wee, so gan dong sia!! =') but hor.. say until so bad, like we nv study like tt. hahaz.. =p but really lah, y we owaz no mood one. haiyo.. lolz.. =p

Today is just 1 happy day! Who doesn't be happy when his supervisor is on MC?! WAHAHAHA...! hmmz... she's on MC tml again. Y not monday and tues? y friday and sat? Sat i no work leh! lolz.. *evil* hahaz.. =p Work is okie, happy that i FINALLY go top up wards myself! Wah.. ppl first week de job, i 5th week den do lor.. better than none lah hor? hahaz! happy.. but only ward 73, my ward 76 ppl take away le.. for 2 times already! hahaz.. took almost 1 hour to finish topping up! Huda was thinking whether am i surviving, and nana was saying whether i need to bring ventolin.. -_- 3 more weeks to go! yeah yeah.. =) Hmmz.. is the grass greener at SOC? =/

Den today is our 23rd mth anniversary!! =) hehes... glad it falls on friday, our weekly dating time! =p Happy! went to have Yuki Yaki for dinner! Its been so long since i've went.. that time was with leenz. Hmmz... great! Esp the fried ice-cream part! We succeeded all 5 ice-cream..! hehes.. My treat lehz!!! Aft that went to Pasir Ris park to walk walk.. den fetch his sister and frenz frm chalet~ Wahz.. so late den reach home. Tired sia!! Glad tml can go swimming with Emily~! I'm growing fats. Haiz. shall continue my routine next week le! Cannot drag any further.. Hmmz, tink my back ok le lah hor? Shall jog every tues and thurs, den sat will be gym with emily or janice! Guess that wouldn't strain too much rite? =x

Oh ya.. i still can't reply the tags! =x Anywae thx everyone for tagging! and ya liping, i will treasure him.. =)=) hehes... *muackz* 1 more mth to 2nd year. =D

This post is specially dedicated to my my 2 BFs!! =p Fiona and my deardear!

First of all, FIONA! Thanks alot for your help today!! If it weren't for you, i'm really stuck and duno where to go sia. I almost wanted to give up finding, but you were the one who's so on of finding the journel although its my project! hahaz.. oh btw, in case u guys duno wat i'm talking abt, my supervisor ask me to go NUS medical library to look for some 16 darn journals! Damn it, its so difficult to find k!! Can spent 10mins looking for 1 only. Knock off at 530, only manage to reach NUS around 645! So sorry fiona, let u waited for....... 2hours15mins??! =x Very very grateful to you! thx for bring me to that place, for having dinner with me, for helping me to look for journels and ask the librarian. Muackz!!

Secondly, its of course my deardear! Thx for taking the effort to come down and fetch me from AMK just now! I'm really so tired, and you juz turned up at the right time! Thx for preparing that jacket for me once i board the car, when you know that i'll be afraid of the cold. hehes.. Love you alot!! =)

Hmmz.. getting happier le! Hopefully this can last throughout my attachment. MP is killing me, but i'm still trying to endure. Hope i wun fall sia. Haiz.. dear wendy ahz, i'm really not deity leh. Give me some space and time lahz...

Keep sneezing and sneezing and SNEEZING! ZZZ! Hope its just the weather and not the flu. I cannot get sick! Tml needa reach at 830 to discuss project. Haiz~!

Just back from Jingkai's place, for Mr Ko's farewell party. Hmmz.. sigh. its a sad thing that he left TP, cos he's the one who is the most understanding le. Well, had fun with TP frenz, glad that we could actually sit down and talk and play together. Esp that Zhong Ji Mi Ma. Yeah, wat a sweety piece of curry+noodles+dao huay+sugar syrup fried fish fillet. Did i miss out any ingredient? hahaz.. yeah.. i ate one. It was ... err.... well, i had no drink leh. hahaz... oh ya, drank some vodka+fruit punch.. hahaz. was feeling a little bit warm but nth much happened. =p

Talking with them makes me feel distant from unhappy MP stuff, although it still lingers on my mind. Its too hurting to be forgotten. At least i feel protected around them, at least i'm still part of TP, i'm not alone.

Anywae, wee had told me that in order to survive in this case, we have to be selfish. Yeah i agree. I agree with Emily too, its too difficult to live up to one's expectation, when she's not the least satisfied with watever you've done, not even account for the effort. All i can say that i'm unlucky to met such an unfeeling supervisor. Its okie, since its her project as well, i shall be selfish. Everything i do is for MY MP, and not for her project.

I've edit a super nice format to go along with my title+synopsis. U cannot imagine a report that's only 3 pages, with the content only 3/4 page. A title page + a 1 line reference, for that stupid "not-even-a-proposal" thing. Really duno wat she wan. Anywae i've given to her. Whether she's satisfied or not, i didn't know. She didn't reply at all. Tink she's juz not appreciative. However, she'll be the first one charging at u if she's not satisfied. Anyway, i've sms-ed her twice today to clarify stuff on MP. She did not reply at all. Dun blame me again if YOUR dateline is overdue. I'm not going to rush for YOUR sake. Why shld i anywae? Since u dun appreciate my effort, i shall reciprocate.

Seriously speaking, i think you shld juz throw your phone away. Or rather, if you dun know how to sms, you shld juz dump yourself together.

Perhaps i'm thinking too much on my own. =) Glad that i learn new things today. Learn how to do crediting, or charging of medication. Everyone was supportive, willing to teach and joked with me, and are most willing to help me whenever i meet any problems. But.. sad to say, only my supervisor was the one who's not really encouraging. Really sianz when i heard "huh? she can do this meh?" den turn to me and say "this thing is very serious leh, really very serious! u cannot make mistake de, or else patient will call and complain! Must give us ur hp no. at the end of the day, in case patient call i ask him/her to look for you!" sigh..

MP is really stressing me and strangling me~ Zzz.. i started so early, yet my sup say we are running out of time! haiz.. she ask me why my SIP logbook owaz write same things. what u wan me to say? I tot i shld be the one asking her lor.. lolz.. And keep asking me to answer phone lor! the thing is... i owaz answer liao oso duno wat the person saying. hahaz.. she say muz ask me answer at least 5 tml. whatever! duh~~ told her i got at least call nurse station before lor, she not satisfied one. haiz..

sian.. need to hand up so many things on monday. think have to cancel some of my dates in the weekends. haiz.. sianz. wat a stupid sch system. why can't our MP and SIP be separated?

I wish there were no comparison at all.
I wish i'm given the same chances that are given to you.
But no. all i have is disappointment.

In sch's like that, you are always better when i tried so hard.
Can u now understand why i used to say i dun wan to be with u in the same place?
Its for the same reason.
Yeah its me fault, my f**king mentality.
But i have no control over it.
You always seem to have a better route than me. I really cannot stand it.

Work life is getting happier since they all started talking to me. Yeah, to me that's very important. It can make ur life dull or meaningful. =) Although its still not those "in-depth" kind of talk, at least it can help me pass my time faster.

Finally went to observe dispensing with my supervisor today. Wahz.. see her talk to patients also got those "strict" tone, like very fierce. hahaz.. mayb its her face only lah. Some people juz give others wrong impression when they dun smile, like people who say i dao when i'm not smiling.. -_-! Quite a pity cos my supervisor in charge of orthopaedic ward, nth interesting to observe except pain killers, and pain killers and PAIN KILLERS! Glad that i'm also asked to go up to satellite 78 (store) several times to take stuff. Hehes.. yeah. i know i'm siao. But i just like to walk around, as far as i can, as long as possible. I dun mind.. =p Hmmz... however, i think tml will be back to square one again.. zzz~ pls let me do other things excepting picking and packing can? PLEASE~!

Once again, i'm so motivated to want to become a pharmacist. But its really impossible. 100% impossible, unless i go overseas, which is also 100% impossible~ haiz.. if only i can solve the monetary problem. NUS pharmacy is so biased. bleahx.. we study almost the same thing, except that they are more in-depth. So wat's the problem with poly grad?

Society is cruel. Remember last sat my piano teacher talk abt her A level student, studying so stressed yet can pass grade 8 in Merit. And she compared me to her. Why can't they understand?? Everyone tot poly is so slacked! Really pissed off lehz.. almost wan to stop taking to her. Well, it may seemed that some other courses' timetables are really great, but NOT mine at all!

Finally a change of skin~ Hmmz.. abit plain but quite like it. except the links, the blue thingy very irritating ahz... hahaz..

Kinda sad today. Piano is sad.. Haiz.. tink my teacher v disappointed. Alot of grade 8 fail the main examination. Although i didn't sit for the exam, but still feel quite sad. Grade 8 isn't easy to pass.. sighz.. plus i have no more motivation for piano. Everyday work come back so tired, and soon its dark, i can't practice at all. There are so many assignments, projects, proposal and prescription logs to do, on top of work. Feel so tired.

Got my pay le! hahaz.. $200 only. for 10days. hahaz.. not bad lah. My week has been good. The PTs are starting to talk to me. Yeah. Starting. hahaz.. isit a good sign? after 3 weeks. hmmz... feel so weird when i'm checking the E-kit (Emergency kit) on thurs. 5 tubes of Adrenaline is gone, and the patient has died. Feel very xin suan.

I need motivation to carry on with life............ please. one thing at a time. i can't breathe.....

If everyday can be like that...~ Work went so smoothly, everyone was so friendly except during rush hour period when we are so short-handed, ppl turn a little nasty. 1 pharmacist from duno where came in to help at that time, and accuse me of "ignoring" the missing prescription. Sighz.. u know that " didn't notice" and "ignoring" is a big difference? So hurt when she say ignore. and the thing is, we only met today. Such an unfriendly person. But overall was nice.. Nana was so kind to collect all the information sheet and put in a big plastic bag to give it to me aft work. So sweet.. =) Saw Miss Hor at retail side, she look rather.... unlike her. hahaz... duno tml or the day aft next she'll be coming over. hmmz... abit scared sia... cos my side not very stable de. haiz...

I lost my little turtle this morning. Haiz... i juz bot it last satuday........ tink i drop it on the way to kovan mrt station. Sigh......... one of the cutest face i ever find.

Hope everyday can be a happy day...~ Same to all reading this. =)

Juz went to see doc. Hmmz.. all said was muscle weakness cos mine not very pain. Sighz.. And he say may take awhile before it can be healed, and chances of aggrevating it again is very high. So wat's the conclusion? it can never be healed rite? And he say i cannot go jogging for the time being!!!!! Because the joints rubbed against one another during jogging. Sigh.. he said only can go swimming. Fated to grow fat lah... haiz...

Given NSAIDs (piroxicam) and cimetidine to prevent its side effect of peptic ulcer. Having second thoughts on whether i shld take it. Hmmz.. cos the pain is manageable, and i'm more fearful of another gastric attack instead. Hope tt cimetidine does its job well.

Trying to finish up my prescription log for cardio and read up on Respiratory today! My preceptor scary one, test u pathophysiology on every topic u do for the week, and every single drug on the prescription, not only the one i've chosen. Scary sia... but good. Gonna propose to her that whether we can have our medical discussion (that's how she name our discussion for prescription log.. lol) before i actually write down on the log. This can prevent me from re-writing again like the case for Cardio, cos i've realized i missed out alot key learning issues aft the discussion.

Can someone please do me favor and slap me awake?! I actually missed going to work today! I wish i were working now sia..... -_-! Cos i feel so lonely at home... nth to do.. and i miss my deardear! Sighz...

Aww.. why do i have to take mc today? Can't i just see doc in sat? That would be crazy i know.. but.. i feel so bored at home! Pengz... I miss SGH... man, i tot that's the last thing i would ever think off.

Enjoyed myself thoroughly this weekend!! Been looking forward to this week end everyday of the week... Sighz.. but tml's work day again!! Why can't weekends be longer? Its simply too short!

Ydae went to shopping and watch movie with deardear! Hehes.. very happy! Watched Corpse Bride, quite a touching show.. hehes... Den we went shop around, mainly for my stuff lahz.. =p hehes... very happy bot a skirt! Like it very much!!! and was so happy cos the biggest size is M, tot i cannot wear cos of my stupid gigantic hip. But can! =) Aft tt bot a slip-on for work, cos my leg hurts.. hahaz... and the other one is spoiling... Thanks deardear for that wonderful date! Looking forward to our cable car sky dining for our 2nd yr! =) *muackz*

Today went repair com! Finally! Can listen to songs le... Been living in miserable silence for the past week, hehes.. hopefully this will be a beautiful beginning for the rest of my days. I'm beginning to feel happier at work becos of going over to Satelite 48.. ha... if only i were there. Even when dear is not working there, i still feel happy there. Sighz.. i hate my side. Anywae glad tt one of the pharmacist and my supervisor asked me wat have i learnt, and hopefully they'll teach me new stuff. Been doing same old things again and again.... Very disappointed when Yew Yee will be going 48 instead of 73..... haiz.... alone for 2 mths..... in a sad, lonely, miserable place, with a hideous meiling. bleah... so wat if i publish names here? She's really pain in the ass..

Twins effect showing at 845pm later at Channel U! dun miss it!! =D Anywae tink i'll take MC tml... hmmz..... cos of that recurrent pain in my back after spraining it last 2 mths.... sighz.. i hope its nth serious.....