Actually i'm feeling rather okay now because it is my 2nd day of my rest day. I've took a 2 days mc because i suffered from a strained back, a strained knee and i developed rashes on my right cheek on my previous flight. Moreover, i was intending to treat myself a break before i go bonkers.

Sometimes i thought to myself that it was sad that no one turns to me the midst of an agony. However, i believe that as long as i'm willing to treat myself better and find someone to talk to instead of hoping someone will talk to me, i released myself some stress. I know that friends out there have their own lives to walk, and they may be cooped up with their own problems as well, therefore "neglecting" you. But the moment u are willing to let yourself out and find someone to talk to, they will be there for u. At least a few will do that.

Bottom line:
Treat yourself better and don't bottle up your feelings.

I'm certainly enjoying the break from everything and i hope these 3 days will be a great healing time for myself. I'm also taking this chance to plan something for a friend whom is feeling down and feels that the world is crushing down on her. I just hope it turns out right and she would realize that we are by her side as long as we know she needs us. =)

I've just finished reading a novel The Confessions of an Air Hostess and it was indeed all too familiar for me. I'm actually surprised that the author felt exactly the same way as i do and i know that at least i'm not alone. =) I'm starting to read P.S I Love You, and just 6 chapters into the book set me teary eyed.. =) Its good to indulge in a novel at times to set you thinking about life in another perspective, although fictionary but definitely a good medicine.

P.S. Ignore the vulgarities in the previous posts.

I've reached my limit and i throw it in..

I'm so deprived of energy that on one will understand because they are not me. Can't blame anyone because it is the superficiallity of image i protrait.

I don't blog down my feelings doesn't mean i'm always okay.

However i managed to cope well because of an important lesson i've learnt during my course of work:

"Never bring the troubles back to home"

It works, although at times only.

So they called me at 2.53am now.

What do they expect me to do? Set my alarms and go back to sleep for another 45 mins? And its another fucking long china flight.

Get a brain, fuckers.

Adapted from "The Confession of an Air Hostess" by Marisa Mackle
Ten myths about cabin crew members:

1) We all love our jobs
2) We also love smiling, even when presented with overflowing sick bags
3) We're not remotely afraid of turbulence
4) We eat the same food as passengers
5) We have a man in every port (we wish)
6) We don't get hangovers
7) We don't mind getting up at 3 a.m.
8) We are not that bright so we need a calculator to work out the price of two coffees
9) We all live very glamorous lives
10) Our secret wish is to marry captains (even ugly captains)

Oh man, how true is that! Even if point 5,6 and 8 doesn't occur to me.

I'm sooo tired that a full 8 hrs of sleep isn't sufficient to keep me refresh for the rest of the day! I feel sleepy the moment i woke up, yet i can't fall back asleep immediately. =/ I think i seriously need a break! I shall endure for 1.5 more months before i get my 5-days vacation leave from sept-dec. =p

To people out there who wants to date me, here are my leave dates:

06-07 August (2 days) - booked
17-21 Sept (5 days) - available
15-19 Oct (5 days) - available
04-11 Nov (8 days) - booked (Hong Kong trip)
10-16 Dec (7 days) - booked (Family trip, maybe Guangzhou)

I simply can't wait for Sept to arrive! I'm breaking down in fatigue very soon. My last vac leave was in January, i'm sloughed hard non-stop for 6 months! =p I shall endure and refrain from reporting sick to earn more money this month, because i can foresee being broke for the rest half of the year. =p

August Events
5th Aug - Limin's bdae celebration, i'm off =)
11th-12th Aug - Xueping's bdae. i'm working long flights both days! =/ I will try to change flight.
25th-26th Aug - Fiona's bdae. 25th is a morning short flight, should be no problem. 26th i'm on standby. =/

I won't let myself miss out on any of these events. In the last resort, i will just report sick. =)

I might report sick for flight tml.

Because i'm really sick and tired.

The reason i'm typing this entry at this UNEARTHLY hour because i was just called up at this UNEARTHLY hour. I was called up at 3.10am to be exact. When i thought we can only be activated at 4am. I only went offline at 1.25am just now and i was still telling janice and wee that i will go crazy if i were to be activated at 4am. But i guess i was wrong. It was 310am for goodness sake!

Anywae i only fell alseep after 2am because i was abit uncomfortable due to bloatedness and an overactive bladder. Please tell me how to survive the upcoming China flight. I'm still considered "early" now because my reporting time is 5.35am, and i'm going to reach briefing room at 5.05am.

3 more SBYs this month, and my hours already exceed 100hr.

I dun mind being activated, just give me a nice set of crew and PLEASE don't do it at this time!! Freaking pissed!

Too many opinions doesn't get things done at all.

I'm overwhelmed by sudden fatigue which i have no idea why.. I felt my energy depleting.

My PMS are over, so what came over me?.....

Hate this.

Haha~ Indeed yesterday was a fun fight with Janice! Luckily we are both doing economy class although it was a super short and rushing flight, and she had an OJT girl with her!! But of course she survived well as an S2, *er-hem* because she got a very nice, sweet, kind, and helpful S4 to assist her!!! *bleahx* =p

Briefing was not as bad as i thought because i didn really read through much on SEP and first-aid. Hehes~ But the questions asked were not so bad! I was lucky to be one of the last person to be asked questions because we were running short of time! =p Janice still have to do role play. And if she were my choking victim, i'll surely do a forceful thrust! *evil laughs*~! hehes.. =p It was fun and i wish we will have more flights together! =)

Sigh.. I was thinking that my life revolved around work and work, and looking forward to every off day. When my off day comes, i'll dread about work again the next day. This is a vicious cycle. Every off day i'll be so dead tired and before i can replenish my energy, i got another 2-3 working days ahead again. Sigh..

I always looked forward to planning overseas trip with family and friends, but it always turned out to be a wet blanket. Its either due to a clash between leaves, or somehow we can't go all together. I'm so tired of getting my excitement shattered time and again. I shall not dream to have this kind of vacation anymore.

Perhaps this is the route i have to take in this life:

Work sleep work sleep work sleep.......

Frankly speaking, I envy others who are leading a fulfiling life.

It was not as bad as i what have predicted...

Anywae today was an enriching flight not because it was my JCL sny, but because i get to sit in the cockpit (finally!!!) for BOTH take-off and landing, and for BOTH sectors!! That means i get to sit inside the cockpit 4 times! When we are about to take off from Singapore Changi Airport, i feel my heart rate increasing as i get really excited! hehes.. I also get to wear the headphones where i can hear the conversations between the pilots and air traffic control. Cool~!

Of course the best part was during landing into Manado. The tech crew were very nice, and they showed me the map and pointed out to me where we are heading, and we can see the volcanos from above! Manado was a really beautiful place with lots of coconut trees. Haha.. And i am REALLY AMAZED on how the aircraft can actually fly on its own! I've also learnt how to look out for turbulence area as well as other aircrafts flying nearby us. I can actually visually see the other aircraft ahead of us when we are about to land into Singapore. Hehes..

From several thousands feet above the sea, and i see differnt type of clouds! U can see a clear fluffy cloud from one side, and a towering cumulonimbus cloud on the other. I can also see the meanders and rivers from above! All my favourite physical geography just came back to me! This is indeed the best part of today's flight! =)