Studies doesn't seem to pull me down recently. I feel nothing when i received results that are cmi, i just pass my cGMP quiz! I dun feel disappointed. lolz.

I'm not happy when i receive my out-of-expectation results for PMT quiz. I just have the feeling of "huh? pengz.. lol" =p

I kinda like this lifestyle. Lovin't it. No additional stress for myself. Beginning to enjoy projects and company of friends of all walks of life. I dun feel bored when i'm stuck in the same assignment from 4pm today til now. Lol. That's dpp prac and counselling tml! Hees. The only thing that affects me is that i needa slp so badly that i can't do anything anymore. =)

I've found a new paradise for myself.. =)

Today is the selection of catergories for SIP (our attachment) that commences on 19th Sept. I've chosen Hospital Pharmacy as my first choice. Almost everyone choose the same.. lolz! Anywae i'm writing in myself. Should i write in to SGH or KKH? Or both?

I'm very absent minded nowadays, i simply couldn't stand myself. *slaps*

I think I've learned to have a high threshold for pain due to migraine! =) I had it coming ard 3pm of today's lab, and it was at my lower back of the head. It was a throbbing type of pain, and somehow i told myself that i muz be used to it, becos it came quite frequently, at diff places of the head. Guess i've made it.. =) I did not appear in pain today, and i'm happy. I've read an article abt a girl who is a serious migraine sufferer who has the ailment since 5 yrs old! Omg.. hers is very serious and very frequent type, up to many times a day. She has a very very high threshold cos she have to be used to it. Hees.. I'm going to be like her.. =) Anw the pain have not subsided yet, mine does not stop when it comes, i have to slp to feel better.

Everyone's spirit was rather down yesterday, and i tot today will be a better day. Guess everyone was too stressed up during those rush of project datelines and term tests. Sighz.. this is the spice of sch life. Like it or not, we have to go thru it. But i'm actually feeling stressed becos i dun feel the stress! nvm.. i guess i'm really too slacked this sem. but i dun really care =p

People around me, please try to loosen up and dun give urself too much stress by thinking too much k? Although it is a wrong mentality to give up on 3.1, but i really feel much carefree as compared to past few sems.. =p If anyone from any of my project group see this, i think they'll hate me to the core. Lolz. Dun worry, i enjoy projects somehow, depend on the subject lah. lolz.. i'll put in effort if i have to. Regarding self-study, it depends on my mood, and whether it allows me to or not.. =p

I guess my "fighting-and-keep failing" feeling is finally gone!~ i actually felt nth when both pmt and cgmp tests kill me like hell. Hmmz.. is it a gd or bad thing? If this were to happen in last sem, i guess i would be cry buckets and feeling moody whole day. Lol.. but i'm not now! =)

Today is a short day, happy too.. lolz. cos its short.. Pengz.. lame~ Hees... feeling rather light-hearted. Hmmz...

My back is alot better now. But it has not recovered fully yet. Still feel the pain when i bend down. But at least it does not hurt as much as day 1. I hope it can really heal soon, i needa get back on tracks. Or else my fats are going to engulf me.

Today's DDCT quiz i have to consider myself to be lucky. It was rather an unprepared test for me, as ydae i have really no mood to study!!! But all those that i studied mostly come out for the test... However, i have no time to complete. I have no time for last question!! -_- To tink angela still says "there's more than enuf time"... zzz... she tot our hand is machine ah. Overall it was okay, but not confident of scoring cos although i know the answers, i dun really know how to elaborate.. More of a thinking question bahz. Sianz...

Today is rather a normal day. Ran with "caregroup" juz now. Haiz.. Cmi. The only thing i'm happy with is unexpectedly, my stb.. lol. sit and reach still okay la. but seriously, my lower back is v pain. i'm not joking! now i finally understand the meaning of "you will not understand the pain unless you experienced it urself"

Can someone teach me how to get back my motivation? I have none.

2 tests tml, and guess what, i felt nth even when i haben barely touched it. I juz wana play game. Sigh~

Today is really a bad day. This morning is already a very bad start. Felt so disappointed with everything, i've since let go of all my goals and everything, i'm so tired. Yet i couldn't really put it down. I'm still yearning of a glimpse of hope, yet my fav sub crash on me like that. I just felt angry, that's all. But come to think, all the 4 semesters which i've struggled through, doesn't get me anywhere. I'm really tired, very tired. can someone teach me how to let go?

I really hate PBL. I hate it to the core. Sometimes it is just so unfair. I'm really feeling so sick of it. I hate the rush of time we have to go through everytime. I've no more energy for sch. Feel like skipping lec everytime. Dun blame me, i've tried. Just that i'm too tired.

To my qad, please cheer up too. It had been a worse day for you. I understand that it wun be just a day, it will linger on for a long time. Somehow all these things can't be controlled by us, its how are we going to handle it.. To confront or not to confront? Well, i also duno. Sorry that i'm not good with words, i'm not someone who knows how to comfort the other one. All i can do is to cry with you. I just hope that everything can lights up for you very soon. Always remember that friends can lend you a shoulder everytime you needs it, you need not put on a brave front when you are with us okay? =)

Bought "new" phone finally!! Hees.. Not something really great, but at least its something i like. SGH-E810C. It may be an old model to some of you, but it doesn't matter to me.. =)

Went to Lemongrass Restaurant with my family for brunch. My brother brought jiahui along. Hahaz.. quite nice the food. Except its rather spicy.. hehes.. and the serving is really SMALL! Omg.. each person only have 2 small scoops of rice/pineapple rice. I'm not very full but dun really can eat much due to the "spicy-ness" hahaz...

Hmmz, suddenly i've so much plan for my future! Argh.. in a dilemma. i duno which want i want to choose! Firstly, i MUST fulfil my wish of going over to 3rd world country for volunteer work, den i wan to choose between further studies and work. There are so many jobs which i wan to take also.. =x hmmz... But it seems that i wun stick to my own course of studies. Oops.. waste 3years and money... -_-

Conquered 3.2km in track, timing sux though. Going to improve timing..

Projects piling up.. sianz. non-pbl subjects machiam pbl... PA2 sux worse than hell.

Humphrey ko came to wish me best of luck for piano exam today. ha.. surprised.. but i tell him that i'll 100% fail..

Didn't study for PMT "quiz", in the end got 0. zzz... nvm. i've tried to study

Met my sec sch frenz aft that, to celebrate liping's belated bdae. Lol.. nice pals forever. Went to cine for ramen and took photos. lol.. all i can see is 9 heads squeezing in a 2cm by 1.5cm sticker..=p

Long day at school. But was considered great. Beginning to like my DPP pbl group more...=) Was telling Janice that all the 3 years we studied was crap if we only wan to work as Pharmacy Technician in the future, cos DPP alone is sufficient. lolz.. but i can predict that its rather stress, esp during dispensing!! Muz be very careful and not give the wrong dose! And counselling to patients will be hell to someone like me.. Errr.. but dun tink will even have the chance to do counselling in the real job.

PA2 sux as usual.. DDCT is sleepy~ Argh.. zzz! sianz.. til i'll really suffer this sem. Its a matter of time i'll break down.. But tink i've grown stronger, immuned to stupid GPA stuff. zzz..

Ran 2.86km in my park juz now~ Haha.. feeling refreshed. But as i was abt to finish 2.4km, there are lightnings coming out!!! Panicked!! Haha... finish the lap that ends at 2.86.. sigh. My aim is at least 3.2km each time sia.. -_- Weird number i know, cos the park's readings are 520m and 250m each time... lolz..

I felt unfairness, i felt sad. Because i am to be so insignificant. Pardon me for being very rude juz now, i just feel so depressed. I duno why am i so bothered, but i am, VERY.

2 days didn run or go amore le.. =( feel fats building up again. Nvm, tml i'll be going to LO. Mayb i can jog before that, or later i the evening... Sigh. I seems to get heavier and heavier, when i duno y... =/ it seems that i can't get the fats off me!

New PDP courses coming out again! Hmmz.. feel like joinning Tennis! Actually we reg last yr for tennis, but back out in the end cos it was too ex. This time Jan is really keen on going, and my mum says she's sponsor half of it. Hmmz.. so i shall consider!! hahaz.. Evey sat go back to sch for 2hrs, abit fan jian... =x it seems that i enjoying doing such things. First is kickboxing, later Carelicious project, now i wan tennis again. -_- can somebody stop me?

I felt so guilty after reading someone's blog. Sigh.. its owaz like that. When i felt that my life is almost complete, there's owaz something which pops out to sadden me again.. Haiz. but i know its my fault, its my own guilt that's eating me. I felt so insignificant as compared to you.. I wish i could be more like you, treasuring every single one around you. I dun seem to able to do that.. Since i've reached puberty, my once outgoing character had a 360 degrees change, to an anti-social person. I like to hide in a corner where no one will notice me.. Why am i like that? I wish i can have my character back in pri sch, when i had no worries of being rejected or jeopardized, its a carefree lifestyle which i enjoyed, for being MYSELF.

Am i that weak? My body gave way so fast! wanted to jog/swim this morning, but i raised the white flag ydae.. =x decided to give myself a break today, i'll be going lo or kickboxing tml! =)

Thankfully lesson starts at 3pm today, but needa go sch at 1.30pm for project meeting. Its always like that, when there's opportunity to coax myself to sleep for as long as i like, i always woke up early. But when i needa wake up early, i always seem to fall back asleep. Kinda tired od these shit. I'm feeling v sleepy now.. but i can't slp... Woke up at 9am duno for wat sia... lol

Watching Madagascar with deardear later in the evening! *looking forward*!! =D

High on energy!! Although only ran abt 2km ydae due to time constrain, i have alot more motivation to do a lot of things~ With the info which Joanne told us today, makes me even more energized!! Suddenly had a mind full of resolutions, but i wun say it here, cos i may be "3-sec-warm", haha, so if i really succeed, den i'll announce it.. =D

Yay! Went to jog 1 round in sch's stadium today with emily and janice. haha.. 1 round only cos i'm lactic-acided, by its becos i didn bring proper clothings to change, and i ran barefooted. Rather painful sia, duno how jan endured the 8 rounds! Its not stamina alone, its the pain under the soles.. lolz! My broad jump is getting worse, from 169cm in pri 6, to 150cm now. Ermz.. i tink puberty plays a big part, where my butt grows and becum heavier.. haiz~

I've been slacking this sem. Studies are no longer my priority, i duno y. sigh.. perhaps i'm oredi jue wang, i dun really feel disappointed when doing GMP pop quiz today, juz feel abit guilty instead. Mayb sort of letting down myself. But i duno.. All i can say is that i regret very much in my 1st year, and it is very late to regret now.