Haiz.. i'm full of shit right now~! Hate myself at times... But... Haha.. Nvm, duno what i'm talking abt~~~~

Went to watch My Girl aft school with dear~! Very nice show! Very funny, and very cute as well!! HeEz =) However, it has a rather sad ending? Hmmmz.........

Nearly lost my cool today.. =p I mean, haiz.. Temper is getting real bad.. Stress is building up? I muz control... control... control.... Haiz... Dun feel like studying anymore....

I'm too tired to study anymore. Initially i planned to study finish both Respiratpry System and the Endocrine system, but now i'm only half way through the Respiratory System.. I can't carry on anymore.. My eyes are closing. Haiz..

Oh ya.. My maths notes still with qad.. Haiz, nvm.. Dun intend to do it today anywae..So its okie.. Haha. Becoming slacker.. I doubt i can study the whole 3 topics for a&p quiz on Wed.. Haiz... I sux man.

Today's formal presentation was ok.. I was so so so nervous.. Anywae everything is over, i'm glad its over.. Ha..

This is really getting damn sickening. Thinking of the workload we have to bear, just turns me off completely. We have so many upcoming tests, and tml is my formal presentation. I have to set off to Changi Airport for my rehearsal in just an hour's time, and probably will do til the evening? By the time i reached home, it's already night. What's more? I must practise my speech at home as well.. I have to study for tml's biochem practical test...

All these are ok.. But we have a&p test on Wed, and maths test on Fri. I can't possibly finish so many chapters on a&p in just 2 days! Stop telling me about Time Management and stuff.. My school ended at 5pm on Monday, and by the time i reach home, how much time have i left to study? In fact, I've only left Tues to study.

All must have think that i probably prepare everything in the last minute, and i shldn't be complaining here. I know i didn, cos this formal presentation thingy really takes up alot of our time.. Oh ya, monday nite i have to do my Maths tutorial as well.. There goes my a&p test..... Sianz. Really sux.. Anywae my Quiz 1 for a&p failed as well, wat's new?

As i sat down here
Realise my tears was real
As it flows down my cheek
My heart was ditched

Just hours before time
I was shot and blind
In the middle of the aisle
I just stare and smile

Deep inside my heart
A cut stops the thud
All was silence and doubt
I was crying out loud

Yet you couldn't hear it
I look down on my feet
In the middle of the aisle
I just stare and smile

It was hurting inside me
Now you couldn't see
How much it meant
The message u sent

A failure in a ditch
Didn't know how to speak
In the middle of the aisle
I just stare and smile

How i wish i could say
At this time of the day
How much u meant to me
Though u couldn't see

I didn know what to say
Wish's the only thing i pray
In the middle of the aisle
I stare and smile..

aRgh! No mood to study today! Haiz.. tml is the dreading Marketing Test!!!! =( I didn really studied much, very no mood now! Hmmz.. Cos it's the subject i do not like??? Haiyo.. cannot cannot, muz have self-discipline.. Get it over and done with huh? Haiz..

Suddenly tot of Biochem test.. So disappointing. ARGH! Trying not to think since ydae, but juz couldn stop thinking! I juz know i did real bad, didn even dare to compare ans. Haiz.. I studied many times over and over again this time, y muz this happen? It makes me lose my confidence for studying again............... sux..

Just added Shoutbox to my blog!!!!!!!! =D Hehez... feeling's so nice.. Cos i'm always very amazed by those who know how to design their own webpage.. =p.. Muz tag k.. hehez! =D

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you can be a bit overprotective and possessive,
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NOBODY WANTS TO PLAY WITH ME!!!!!! :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(

YaWnz~ This is getting so damn boring. Just discussed with dear on Biochem for tml's test, and i'm going to sleep~~ Haiz.. Well, i've planned to discussed the whole 3 chapters, but i cannot stand it anymore when i haben even completed half a topic. Forget it.. I'm too sleepy to do that, but i'm more than energetic for Survival Project.. =D

Haiz.. Keep getting mixed up by Carbohydrates and Lipids. Sianz..~ Duno wat's the problem with me. Nervous system's wires get crossed. Haiz... Boring~! I'm going to take a long break! No more biochem for today!

Common Question raised: How to see whether a sugar is alpha or beta, the OH group shld be facing up or down in carbon-1?

Ans: It does not depends on whether the OH group is facing up or down. It depends on whether the OH group is in line with the CH2OH group (-cis) or not, if it is, den it is a beta sugar. If it is not in line with the CH2OH group (-trans), it is an alpha sugar.

;) Got the answer from asking around~ ;)

Today's A&P lab is considered nice i think? Hehez.. At least it is conducted outdoors, not in the usual boring lab..~ hehez. However i'm not comfortable, cos i tink i'm too slack in appearance. But who cares.. Hehez, not abit self-consicous though..

Got to play with the blood pressure meter and the stethoscope! Hehez.. At first i wana try the manual one, i mean the traditional blood pressure meter that uses a pump! But everyone scold me.. =( say i fan jian! hehez... cos no one knows how to use it.. =p ok lor, in the end we used the electronic one.. hehez.. I love the stethoscope! Although i'm a failure la, cos i juz hear nth!! I only succeed in the 3rd try i tink.. Hehez...~ If only someone brings a digicam, den we'll take photo with our lab coat! Hehez... Looks cool hor... =pPp okie, i'm cheating on myself... heez~~

CSAS was paradise! I mean... LT is opened to us to let us do our own things! Hehez.. no teachers around, so its freedom! =D Even brought food in to eat while discussing~ =p Hmmz.. but was quite pissed while discussing the formal presentation.. Shall not elaborate too much here, forget it.. Just hope that everything will end peacefully nex week, juz do it once and for all huh? Haiz..~ Getting sick of the presentation thingy. Oh plz, i duno how to talk alrite?! Not even the rehearsed one... Shit me..! Oh well.. what to do........... This is me!

Feeling quite worned out now~ Just finished maths tut.. It sux! I used 1hr45mins to do 3 questions!!!!!! Failure isn't it? Anywae tml there'll be a class quiz on the whole topic on Hypothesis Testing.. Go read up k? Good luck!

Suddenly had a tinge of envy, when i heard that Shee Wee going out to cycle with her family~ I mean... They all went out together to have some fun..~ Hmmz... Glad for you.. =) Because.... my parents juz had a fight...

It hasn't resolved yet. My dad had went out.. Heck. Its was so unpredictable. One moment we are discussing to go FIsh and Co for dinner, and the next minute, everyone stays at home. Well, all thanks to me. I juz couldn stand it when my dad keep "scolding" my mum, so i juz said " Shut up lah, u all want to quarrel, go quarrel urself.. Why muz u all quarrel at meal time?! u all want to quarrel, go ahead, i go home! " My dad's reply was " Go home lor! " Well, its all ended.. I stormed into the house.. We were at the lift at that time. My mum even scolded me! She DEMANDED me to come out at once. What the hell... Y couldn they understand their children's feelings? Always quarrel i front of us like nobody's business? Its been like that since i was young, so i've sort of gotten used to it..

Ha.. Well, it seems that i'm in control of the whole situation. Because of me, all stayed home in the end.

Well well.... my mum juz scolded me again... No mood to blog.... Tears are flowing.... They dun understand me at all... ~~~~~~ SUcks...

This is so damn irritating!!!!!! aRRGHHHHhh!!!! Stupid Pop-ups keeping popping out! So pissed off..! For goodness sake.. Why muz this happen to my com?! Once they popped out, i can't close it for some reason.. Den i muz Alt+Ctrl+delete! Many many times!! >=( !!! Some are stupid pornograghy ads!! I'm going crazy if i accidentally clicked it again!!!!! Den some stupid Warning Notice will be shown... "You are in danger! You have been caught for visiting "_____" Ur IP is "_____" What the hell..!

Hehe... Enought abt tt. Must not let that affect my mood for the whole day. Now's only 10+am, i still got a whole day! Hehe.. Good start of the day.. Set the alarm at 730am, but automatically woke up at 7am. Went down for jog! This time i increased one more round! =p Heez... So happy~ Feeling refreshed and healthy once again.. =p

Went to do some CSAS research on NEWater tech, and i've done my job! =) Sent the file to Lixin already, cos she'll be doing the Powerpoint slides.. HEhe.. happy! (",) Well.. what shld i do next? Hmmz... probably date dear to go study together... =pPp hehe... i wana study for Biochem test! I cannot afford to flunk it.. Cos my tutorial quizzes are already hopeless..~ Have to buck up in other areas!

Hmmz.. Thoughts of the day! Ermz.. thoughts of the morning i guessed? Well.. Life's certainly not a drag if u know how to count the blessings. Some ppl wanted to live, but can't. Why must we let some setbacks pull us down completely? People often regret abt the past and stuff, but never look upon the doors that are opened for them.. Be happy that u still have friends around you, ur family, ur loved ones. You still have air to breathe, food to eat, water to drink, home to sleep in.. Although sometimes we often say life sux or whatever, but that's only temporary? Its too long since you felt this way, i've been observing you even if u duno abt it.. COunt ur blessings girl...~

Today's quite a normal day! however! hehe... a day without sadness and worries is a blessed day! =) hehez...

Had usual lessons... Glad that a&p tutorial is off today! hehe! Yeahz, still went for Marketing. Ai Qin didn turn up today, i struggled whether to go for lesson... Aft thinking and thinking, i still went in the end! Hehez... Well, i reached quite early, so i chose a corner seat at the back of the room and sat by myself! Luckily i still have Emily talking to me for a while, nice gurl.. =D But its only awhile... Heez... not that bad actually. Hmm.. i muz learn how to be independent, i muz learn how to be a loner huh? Cos TP's system juz keep shuffling people ard, i cannot be too dependent on others. A good start? Heez... 2hrs tutorial aren't that diff to pass actually.. =p Heez..

Lolz.. Today's rather comical. Haha... Had lunch at Mensa! Well well.. Janice have met her dream guy! Hawaiian-looking, cool with sunglasses, and an extraordinary body! Haha! Tink of it i still can laugh til pengz... Madness. And we really really bad lor! =p Hope tt guy nv notice! haha!

Shee wee's not in sch today!! and tml too i guessed? =( Yeah we miss u alot!! miss ur laughter.. haha.. gan dong not? =p Muz come lah, dun let us miss u mahz.. tao yanz.. heez.. kk i shall stop here.. Going to discuss CSAS online? Well, the rest's not online yet.... zZz....

Happy birthday to myself!

Well well.. Both sweet and bitter things happened... Haha. Well, for now, i dun wana tink abt the bitter ones anymore.. I dun wan to care those ppl who doesn't give a damn abt me as well. So why shld i bother? Tears have been shed, emotions had ran deep, but all has passed.. I wana move on with MY life... without you, without anymore sorrow revolving around you anymore..

Hmmz~ First of all i have to thank xueping!!!! *hUgz!* really hugz! =D This sweet best friend of mine treated me roti prata this morning! Lolz.. Well, its means alot lor! HEhe.. pardon me for being late!! Cos i missed that 88... Its quite rush though, cos we have to take a cab to Jln Kayu, so sorry, u paid the cab fare for me...! well thx alot alot!! =) For the presents!! Haha... 3 varieties!! A bouquet of piggy and teddy, a box of lovely sweets, and a Piglet and Pooh mug! All are so nice! HAha... =) Really thx alot alot!! The card and letter as well.... So nice... =) *huGz* again!

Reached was like ... early? Hehez.. Shee Wee they all arrived so early too! =p Hehez.. Well i really really wana thank my beloved Qing Ai De (Shee Wee), Watermelon (Janice) and Monkey (Wendy) !!!! Hehez... all of u rocks! =) Received a nice self printed t-shirt from them! They designed their own!! HEhez.. i know u all sacrificed beauty sleep and energy for the design. Really appreciate alot alot!!! *muAckz* !!! =) sO happy!!! Heez... Got chance i treat u all go my palace.. i'll prepare sumptous meal for u all~ =D

Well well... The surprise came in here! Aft CSAS impromtu test, met dear outside class.. We went to Mensa and had our dinner!! He passed me a present from Shu Qin!! =D Really surprised!! Very very happy.. =) Really appreciated. A nice big big mug from her too! Hehez... Its very nice and cute!! =D thx alot.. lolz..~!! *huGz* !!!!!

Above that i also received another present from dear~ Hehez.. a box of famous amos cookies i asked for.. =pPp Hehez! Thx alot dEardeAr!!!!!! =D=D The box's so cuuUtEee!!!! =)

Heez.. overall is a very happy day, except for a rocky start in the wee hours and the morning.. Well, like what i've said, everything is over..~ Its okie.. Sorry Fiona couldn meet up with u today!! =( Tink tml will be fine for me ... Heez! =) =)

HmMz.. promise myself to blog more today~ =) HehEz... Well, went to Limin's "house warming" today~ =p lolz.. heez.. Her dog is sooOoo cute!!! He's so active, keep jumping around when we step in~! Wowz... He can bite lor, but its not tt painful.. HEhe.. bUt i still want to keep a safe distance from him.. =p Yeahz, her mum's cooking is great! Hehez... She's so fortunate to be able to eat at home often.... Sobz, my mum's working and she seldom cook as a result... =( Selina, Maggie and Liping were present too.. Hee, glad to see them again! =D Oh ya.. received a very very cute cushion from them!!! Its white in colour, with a doggy pic in the front. At the back it wrote "I wanna keep u forever" .. Lolz! Tao yanz.. love them to bits! Oh ya.. Plus a bracelet from Moshi moshi and a small lovely mango cake.. =D ( qAd forgive me! =pPp)HEhez~ Thanks alot~~ To Liping, Selina, Limin, Maggie, Yuen Ching, Li Ping, Vienna and Nai Ying... (",)

I left abt 430pm with Liping, and went to meet Shee Wee and Janice to Bugis to look for our formal clothes.. Well, bought a skirt only.. HEhe...~ I feel that i couldn find a matching top.. =(.. Well its okie, i still have a couple of weeks i suppose? Hehez... YEahz.. Wilson (Jan's bf) came to join us in a short while.. Lolz.. He's funny man..~ Hmmz.. But was thinking as well.. =p Hahaz...

Oh ya, received a very very beautiful anklet from my beloved cousin! Bernice! HAhaz... thx alot... I like it alot!! =) And a pair of purple ear studs too! hEez!!

Overall is a happy happy day! =D yeahz...~ Hehez.. However i still have some mixed feeling within me...~ Well... Some may know, some may not.... =p Happy birthday to myself....~~

HapPy birthdAy to juanz! Hehe... Hope u hAd a wonderful birthday! =)

Me hAd one.. Today's not my birthday, but dear celebrated with me.. =D Got the greatest present, the sweetest cake and the most special "candle"!!! Lol... i'll remember the scene forever.. =) Its so, fairytale.... =)=)

HaPpy anD touched.. (¯`v´¯)

F***** up...!! Really.. BTH.. SuX loR! Feel like scolding more vulgarities, but guessed i couldn do so here......

Wtf.. Everything also ask me to do.. What do u all treat me as?! A maid?! What the hell.. I know i seldom do housework at home, but y muz u all ask me do everything!! What abt ur precious son?! Plz lor.. Ppl NS lehz, no hmwk, nth.. Somemore got break everytime. Break time do wat?~ Play game! He play game can lahz!!! Play for duno how many years liaoz, didn hear u all say anything. I play during my term test break, and this is the first time i play an online game, u all have so many comments.. wtF...

Good lor.. He no need do anything at all! Hey.. tml i got test and i haben do my tutorials... They say i'm faking up an excuse! Ccb lor... U now wat they ask me to do?! Their precious son's shoes are drenched, they asked me to help him use hair dryer to help me blow them dry!!!! WTF!!!!!! Hey.. his shoes lehz..... Ask me do?!!!! THEY JUST KEEP COMPLAINING THAT I DUN WAN TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Den he lehz?! In the room playing game lor!!!!!!!!! SUX LAH!

Doing some Marketing stuff online, and all of a sudden, i feel like exploding! TP's e-learning really sux! I can't even play the course, the player juz hang there! Gosh.. What Skillport huh, advance technology! My foot ! Bth.. It is so rare that i have the mood to log in there... Well, dun blame me for not learning anything, the system juz sux! How can they implement e-learning when they have the problem themselves... -_-

Well.. not going to play the course anymore! I'll juz log in and leave it there, so that the time logged in will be taken down.. Heck care! Oh.. i hate marketing!!!

I've changed the song.. A theme from Land Before Time. It is also a theme for me, time before graduation. This reminds me of the time when spent during our NP days... It is just so memorable. There are tears as well as laughter, it is really a nice memory, when things are still as fresh as ever.. Things have changed now, i knew it.. Or rather, i've changed quite abit.. Whatever it is, i do not want it either, i juz can't help it. Its a feeling can't be controlled. A stupid mentality.


Dun wana tink too much anymore. Some things do change, because new events keep adding on to our lives. I must accept this change. I duno whether i could turn back time, i wish, but i may not.. Anywae will be meeting Shee Wee and Wendy to Suntec later, looking for some formal wear. I dun tink my mum remember to give me money, so i'll hav to fork out my own first.. Looking forward to this.. =)

Thinking of buying a pair of running shoes as well as a slip-on... Cos both are torned~ Have to spend money again.. Haiz.. I'm not spending unnecessarily, cos they are really tattered~! Mayb not going to buy everything in a go, i'll just settle on the formal clothes first.. =)

Oh.. Didn go for maths lec today..~ The thought of travelling 2hrs to attend a 1hr lec really turns me off.. Haha.. Cos i have to rush back to hougang for piano again. So pardon me huh.. =p Been feeling so tired, muscle ache all over, aft the jog yesterday. Bth, i'm getting weaker, little jog like tt can make me ache all over.. Have to buck up already!

Miss someone though... =(

Going over to esplanade later in the evening to meet fiona and colleen for dinner! Hehez.. Although its late, but once in a while its nice.. My mum's at home, so she'll demand me to go home early. Sometimes i wonder, is 18 really tt young? Why muz she insist that i have to go home so early? I wonder when she's going to give me tt type of freedom. I'm not complaining, i understand her worries.. I'm juz wondering..

Oh yaz.. thought of ydae really makes my blood boils.. Sickening..~ Just feel that guys nowadays juz sux! Well, i do admit that girls changed too, but, guys are too much at times..! Haiz... Forget it. I dun wan to interfere.. I'm in no position to reprimand him, u have to do it urself....

Today's a mixture of both sweet and bitter..

Well, sweet is because today's marketing is cancelled!! wahaha! so happy! Before the lesson i was really dreading it..! I have totally no interest at all..!~ I dislike it..~! Regret choosing tt CDS... Haha. I thought my life was so miserable when i knew i had to go for the tutorial. Upon finding out that today's lesson was cancelled, i realized my life is filled with colours~~~!!! =D Haha~! Its really heavenly~! =D=D!

Bitter is because i was so so so disappointed with my a&p results.. Its my worse subject so far, and my result really sux! I'm so depressed aft i got back my term test paper.. I never thought it could be that low.. It somehow makes me realise that, perhaps i've made the right choice to go into PS.. Well, I know that i shldn't judge by one pathetic test, but, somehow i feels that i'll not really excel in it... Its okie, at least i'm happy with my other 2 tests, hopefully i can buck up on a&p..

Ohhz.. Whoever gave my hp no. away to a particular person without asking me, plz respect me~! Pissed off... Really... Haiz.. My cousin's having some relationship prob, and she asks me to help her by talking to her bf.. I dun wan to interfere, but seems that she's really left with no choice. Anywae i know her bf too, although we are not that close. Hopefully things dun get worse...

Well.. By counting the blessings and ignoring the undesirable ones, today's considered a good day~ =p haha.. Nothing depressing happened today, so all is fine i suppose! =) Unless something cropped up at the end.. *Choy*..!

Finally resume our badminton session today! Although we only played abt an hour, while the rest of the hour was spent of slacking and chatting, i feel much healthier! Yeahz, its been one month since I last jogged. =x Fats are accumulating!

Stumbled across someone's blog today~ Well, shouldn't use the word "stumbled", cos, i've been reading that blog.. =p Nevermind me, this person is someone whom u all dunnoe.. Haha.. Had some mixed feeling aft reading tt entry, its not sad, neither it is happy. Just.. some weird feelings.. More towards the happy side? Relieved i suppose... Argh.. nvm~

Hopefully everyday can be so simple yet blessed.. (",) Life need not be too "happening", as most girls' definition would be going out clubbing or enjoying life somewhere. Just sweet and simple, that's enough, at least for me.. =)

Life dun seems perfect nowadays, as i thought it is.. Or rather, life is NEVER perfect. There is always something cropped up at the end of a happy day, and ruined your so-called perfect day.. Perhaps not many people will agree with me, but it juz happen to me most of the time.

I've come to think alot. You can never please everyone. So, juz be it.. As long as there's one person who truely appreciate you, i tink that would be wonderful enough~

Ohhz... school starts today after a one week term break! Well.. Today's biochem prac makes me hate chemistry even more. I mean, the feeling of wearing the gloves today, reminds me of OC prac, perhaps i really dun wan to choose PS aft all.. I'm really confused, thur's the doom's day..!

Presentation during CSAS sux. Well, i'm a super lousy presenter. I dun have the confidence, i dun have the fluency, i dun have the X factor or watever. Never ask me to do any presentation! I'll juz read from the script! And that's it..! Whatever body gestures, building rapport with the audience are not my cup of tea, and if i'll ever do that, my hair wil stand.. Its so unnatural for me, and i'm not going to do that! I dun mind if i only get average marks, juz dun care~~~

Oh ya.. tml will be having maths class quiz on t-distribution. People who stumbled across my blog today take note k.. Going to watch tv... *diSappeAr*