I will tell myself if i know its the right time to tell. I dun need an informer, i dun need anyone to be the loudhailer for me. U are making me miserable to go work everyday now, are u happy now? I'm not as happy-go-lucky as you, i'm not as ignorant and take things as lightly as you. U have created a hell for me. Are u happy now?

I'm so damn pissed off that i wish i can use strong words to scold the sense out of you. But i can't. This flu has already make me feel so sick, u are making me feel worse. Thanks for the "u want more MC i can make more cookies for you" Til now u can still joke abt it?!!!!! Thanks for everything u know..

I've never been so pissed off by a fren like that. To think i still treat you as a friend. Perhaps i'm the ignorant one.

So wat now? I duno.. take a step at a time. I duno how to face everyone tml.

Fuck it.

Its been quite some time since i really fall sick. The pass MCs i took were for other stuff like backaches and well, some are keng-ed as well. Hahaz.. Had slight fever after watching X-men with deardear so i went home early. Felt alright later in night, and therefore forced myself to work today. Hmmz.. was tolerable, but i was so damn tired k. Runny nose started today.. Sigh.. make me feel lethargic. I just hope there's no more fever, cos i can't swallow the paracetamol.. -.-

I'm somehow clearer on what i wana do in my life. Yet things sometimes are beyond my control. I just hope whatever that i hope for can really come true. Take a step at a time.. =) Right now, i'm clear that i want to further my studies in pharmacy, however, i'm not financially prepared. How long must i work? Btw, pharmacy is a 4-year course.. sigh... University of Tasmania is a good sch, shld i give up my chance and reject it? Sighh....

Right now, i have a dream in mind.... Let that come true first k?

Anywae, i've got the answer to the emptiness that has been bothering me for quite some time.

*i thought i'll felt okay without ur presence, but u make me realize i'm not*

-full blown flu bug attack-

I promise myself to blog today! Because i've got a good news to share!~

I PASS MY INTERNAL PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!

Its a miracle!!!!!!! OMG~~! 105/150. WAHAHAHAHA!! Can't believe it man. I pass all my 3 pieces, aural and sight reading, and my scales only failed by 2 marks! omg! I speculate that i'll get 70+ after my exam. hahaz.. I guess the examiner was too lenient! Yeah! Even my teacher say i sux when i play today.. wahahaha! Anywae, its just an internal exam, but somehow, it motivates me to pass it well for the external!~ I'll buck up man.. =)

On the other hand, i'm feeling sheer emptiness in me, i duno why. I'm alone at home now. Maybe because of this. However, i feel so empty these days to blog recently. That's y i didn update as frequent as before... Sighh.. Wat happen?

Alright! Time for an update on my boring life. hahaz.. hmmz.. quite a few things happened recently, but i shan't disclose until i have sucessfully succeeded.. =) Right now, things are not yet confirmed, so all i can do is just to pray and hope for the best.

Just received IDP package! Was excited when i saw "congrats, your application has been sucessful......" Well well.. I got offered Bachelor of Pharmacy by University of Tasmania, and Bachelor of Food Science and Nutrition by Deakins Uni. Hmmz.. However, its a 4 year course. Right now, its definitely out of the question. Any kind soul wana sponsor? haha... Anywae, i'll be rejecting their offer bah. No money, no talk. Sighh..

Take one step at a time? Nah.. I'm getting impatient. My mum keep insisting that i should get a degree. But why can't she understand that local uni dun accept me?! *fuming up* She keep wanting me to do things that are beyond my control. Pissed off ah... Ask me get any degree just to survive. Haizz.. til now still got such an old-fashion thinking.

Life's pretty boring with the same kind of work. Picking, packing, checking x 100000000 times per day. My passion is not here, i want to fly out of here.

Nevertheless, its a great day today! =) At least i've done something which i didn't really believe i can do it. Although things are not as hopeful as i hope to be, i'm still happy that at least i fulfil the first step. =)

Huggies to all!!! Graduation ceremony is over! We have all obtained our diploma and its time to embark on a new journey! Yeah... =)Oh yeah, although i'm not really proud in juz being a diploma holder, but its better than none! Life's so unpredictable. I'll try to remain optimistic =)

Went out with janice, shee wee and her sis to town today. Took some neoprints and its simply a happy day out! Today seemed so short, yet so dreamy. =)

* Its all worth it * Am glad i that made the sudden decision, and its a right move indeed. =)

Had an enjoyable ydae! =)First of all, let me wish liping a happy 20th birthday! =)

Let me start with the morning! Work is a little messy and chaotic cos B1 pharmacy is closing for renovation and everyone went up to L1. Its so packed with people and everyone busy topping up to the max to prepare for the "battle" on monday! Times passes rather quickly except for the last 1 hour.. Lol.. Aft that met up with shee wee and joanne where we head for a quick lunch before going to piano.

Aft piano, i went home to get changed before meeting xp, selina, maggie, liping to have our sumptuous dinner at Heeren's Billy Bombers! First time i'm eating there, and i shared a Seafood Combo + Chocolate Milkshake with xp! And we couldn't finish them!! The serving was so huge, and i was wondering if the set meal is really meant for 1 person. Pengz! Took a few photos and had fun!~ Hope either selina or liping can upload the pics soon and i shall upload a few here.. hees =)

We to party world from 9pm to 1 am last nite! Had fun there too~! =) Really love these ppl to bits.. hees. The place is so cold~~~~!! Haha.. Nice singing with them! Reach home around 115am?? Ehh i can't remb. I only remb that i slept at 230am cos i went gaming aft that.. =p *i hope to meet up with u guys again soon!!!*

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-be harsh to me and i will reciprocate-

In a few more minutes, i'll have to prepare to for my piano internal exam. No amount of luck can let me pass this exam. Becos my scale practically cannot make it. Sight-reading cannot be helped, and aural..? No need even say. Lol.. Its a miracle i can pass grade 7, and the gap between grade 7 and 8 is so huge. How am i going to jump over when i barely climbed the wall? Fortunately its only internal exam, i shall jia you for my main exam in september!!! =D

I miss working. Haha.. I'm crazy.. But its really fun over at SOC B1 pharmacy. Probably becos the people are nice and crazy. The 2 phillipino PT are so nice, the NUS attachment students are nice too! Den still got janice! Hmmz.. love having fun while working. Sigh.. I guess good things don't last, do they? This is my first and last week at SOC B1..! sobzzz...

My gastric isn't good these few WEEKS. Sigh.. I kind of suspect something worse than dyspepsia alone. Hopefully its not reflux, and choy, it MUST NOT be peptic ulcer!