DDCT down! This paper is not as straight forward as angela moghe said!! zzz! Anywae.. 50-50 confidence.. hahaz.

PMT down!! It was a rather satisfying paper. However, many questions require additional points which the notes do not provide. So you know, muz think on our own.

PA2 down!! This is my most dreaded paper cos it requires a lot of stamina and energy!! Glad its over.. well, i shall not discuss it. You guys shld know huh.. ha.. anywae din have time to finish. Section A was ok, section B1 was ok too... until B2.. my heart crashed.

Lolz.. anywae glad its 3/4 over for term test. Tml's GMP is much more relax cos only 1 topic to study, but its a huge topic anywae. Another energy-draining paper tml, cos really need to think!! I dun think that the questions will be so direct from the notes. Haiz.. i'm looking forward to after tml!! At least i can relax for a day huh.. hahaz. Really lack of slp last nite, i can't fall asleep!!! duno why ahhhhhhhhhh............. I keep thinking abt The Maid -_-! When i can finally slept at 5am, i heard the alarm clock riinnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggg..

Today's PA2 environment really sux. Its such a tiring paper, yet i'm not at my best.
1) The LT is really too cold lah!
2) I dun have enuf slp for this!! Stupid The Maid.
3) My new contacts today... Make my eyes so tired! My right eye keep having double vision. I almost died when i read the first qn and the words are all overlapped. No one can imagine how i pass the 2-hr reading and writing the paper.

Conclusion: I shall not lament it further. Can pass can liao.. =)

Today is a happy day! =) Hehes.. School ended at 1pm today~!! But slacked with wee in sch and TM~! Haha.. really want to thank my qad alot alot!! Really.. Its been you who've accompany through my darkess moment, esp last week, as well as accompanying to slack so that i'm not lonely.. =) *muackz* love you girl.. really is my Qing Ai de! =D sorry to waste your time for revision, but really grateful and touched that u pei me so many times le! so pai say.. really thx alot! =)

We slacked at TM til around 5pm, and i headed to Orchard MRT to meet with the amkss girls.. hahaz.. there was a little communication breakdown becos my phone got no batt!! Nevertheless, still managed to met up with everyone at Pepper House! Hmmz.. highly recommended place to try, the food is nice!! =) but all is beef, there's only 1 chicken set, so i got no choice =p hahaz..

After that here comes the cake!! Hahaz.. i tink Liping has really done a very good job at hiding the cake! Fiona didn notice, i bet xp oso din.. hehes.. The staff at pepper house is very nice, they sing birthday song together with us! So sweet... hahaz! Yeah... tink both of them is quite surprised.. hahaz... There's one of the staff whose birthday also tml, and we gave her a share of the cake as well.. hehes... So nice.. really happy to see them altogether! =D Took alot of photos, but none was mine cos my phone no batt!!! =(=(

Hehes.. went to walk walk after that.. Actually wanted to go home, but along the way, there was sales at Giordano as well as samuel and kevin! Shop quite long there, and we keep trying the clothes.. hahaz.. i told selina we really look like aunties sia, only go in those got discount or promotion lor!! pengz!! lolz.. anywae bot a normal giordano tee, bright green colour.. think its a new colour, haben try it yet... hahaz... =p

I hope we can have such gathering again! My exams will be over in sep, til then girls.. =) *hugz* to all!!

Happy advance birthday to my special friend, Fiona! *muackz*! glad u like the present so much!!!! (",)

Today is the 3rd last day of my school life in TP.. Sighz?! So how am i feeling??? hmmz.. i really duno. Perhaps i juz dun wan to think abt it, i'm running away from this reality.. Argh. Although i hate to study so much, but there are still lots of fond memories left behind these 3 years. Will we remain the same as before? Will we still remain in contact after we leave for SIP? sighz.. again, i shall not think abt it..

This week is much slacker.. Next week will be term tests week! Dooms week!! Sighz... 4 papers.. all in a row. I really hope i can do well for these tests so that my end results will not be that ugly. I felt worse than in yr 1 sem 1. I dun regret for my slack-ness. I dun mind having Cs in my results.. Cos.. Degree in Pharmacy dun allow advance standing! Argh.. heck the results then.. lolz.

I'll be graduating soon! What am i going to do??! I duno... can someone help me? Can someone donate money to me so i can go overseas?? hahaz.. Even i had the money, i duno whether i wan to go not... i can't bear to leave my family, my friends, my dear here! =(=( Well.. mayb i juz wait for the right age to get married and born babies.. =D

Oh.. today's my bro birthday! Happy 22nd birthday! Sighz.. but am very angry with him sia... HE THREW AWAY ALL MY WRAPPING PAPERS! how am i going to wrap presents?!! kaoz... was fuming mad juz now. forget it den.. its his bdae, and he treated me red egg.. -_-

*I can never my life without you anymore, I love you*

Never underestimate the lethality of a puny mosquito. It is such a nuisance. I dun mind if it wans our blood to nourish their egg, but why does they wan to transmit diseases to us?! Aren't they deserve to die..? Sighz....

I still feel very weak this morning. After piano i felt better.. hahaz. Thanks to piano, my teacher and jocelyn.. I love the music! =) not forgetting xp!

Anywae went to see deardear today. I can't slp at all last nite... I duno wat time i fall asleep, but i woke up at 6am.. haiz... den later went back to slp... 7+am woke up again..... haiz... i woke up in the morning, first thing i do is to cry. I'm so useless.. I tink my mum and brother saw.. haiz. It was such a misery, i can't even cry loudly when i want to, i have to hide.

So i went over to SGH in the morning.. Stayed there still 3pm, den go for my piano.. Haiz.. doc confirm is dengue.. but the platelets are rising.. so dun no need to worry. But muz stay for another night.... haiz............. i really really sad.... Dun how many times muz i cry in a day... I hope deardear is fine over there, but really pains me to see deardear look so weak. Haiz... ni xin ku, wo ye shi xin ku...

*really hope u can be out tml* cos tml is our day. Happy advance 21st month anniversary~ i love you dear.

Why must it happen again and again. I was really happy juz now. 100% happy. now.. i can't stop crying......... it came suddenly. u know how painful is that impact.

I have no stamina for crying. mayb due to my weak respiratory system. i'm having difficulty breathing now. yet i can't stop.... y can't my body allow me to cry........

i know i sux. i shouldn't let u worry abt me instead. i juz cannot control.. i'm really angry, really sad... all come together.. its been one week...... i'm breaking apart...................... i wish i can hold u in my arms at this moment. deardear.. i really love u.

I woke up with a sore eyes this morning.. the moment i opened my eyes, i knew it. Cos it seems that the distance between my eyelids are shorter when i blink~ (its ok if u dun understand me.. lol) Anywae... It started to itch since last last saturday, dragged for 2 weeks, and it finally blown up today. But.. the swell seems to subside le... -_-! anywae will see doc to get eye drop later, cos its been dragging for v long...

My mood's been unstable these few days~ Zzz.. duno wat happen. I can be totally different in juz a few minute's difference.

Hmmz.. blog-hop and friendster-hop may not be a good thing. It can be unhealthy. Esp when u feel so envious of other people..

Sighz. If i'm granted 3 wishes if life, i would choose Health, family & friends, beauty! Studies aren't impt to me.. lol. Yeah.. beauty... u have extremely low esteem when u feel ugly. I guess everyone will feel ugly once in a while huh.

*emptiness*

Can someone tell me the significance of studying....

When people in the olden days can survive with farming and hunting?
When people in developing countries can lead a happier and carefree lifestyle?
When less people in the past developed myopia and vision problems?
When people in the past have a stronger immunity?
When lesser people have psychological problems in the past?

So what if medical science advances??

Why is there such things as HIV virus that is incurable?
Why is there a mutation in the genes of existing viruses to something deadly like SARS?
Why is there drug-resistant bacteria everywhere?
Why does the incidence of developing cancer increases?

There is no dominance in this world. Everything that advances is countered by the natural feedback mechanism. There is no point wasting too much money on doing research and inventing cures. It will be a never-ending road. Humans, just give up and not oppose the law of nature.

So why am i still studying?

My back is aching me! Its been the 3rd day since the pain came back. It all started when i was doing sit and reach... Most probably due to over-strain since i haven't done it for 3 years? I wanted to reach 43, that's y.. well i achieved my goal, but it resulted in a super-strained back for abt a week! i could barely bend at tt time, and was so happy that it finally healed.. However, i was wrong. It doesn't healed completely, or rather, it won't be healed. The pain always comes back every few weeks, and last for around a couple of days.. But this time the pain was more immense. Its the 3rd day. I wonder whether i would be paralysed. Tried to reach my toes juz now, it was killing me even before i can reached 90degreees...

I overslept today. My piano is from 10am-1130am, an extra half hour for me becos jocelyn overlapped mine last week. Well, i wasted it myself -_- i woke up at 10am! for goodness sake! Feeling so sleepy there.. haha... but i managed to master my Sonata in D! =)

I'm feeling better already! =) Hees.. oh btw, i still can't tag at my own shoutbox, i duno y. i can tag in some other ppl's tag, but not all.. Hmmz.. so if i din reply ur tag, its not becos i dao!! its juz tt i can't.. =(

Feeling slpy still. Hahaz. Wat's more to come?
- Must finish pa2 lab report
- PMT calculations for friability and hardness test
- Study for DPP major test on monday! 3 major topics! congestive heart failure, chronic renal failure and diabetes mellitus! How to study finish sia??!

I'm glad tt ddct proj, dpp presentation and csas interview test is down! cheers! =) still got ddct presentation though, but that's minor.. =)

not been blogging for many days... feel like blogging so much today suddenly. yeah, my previous entry is quite a chirpy one, but this is gonna be a very sianz entry. u all can dun read de ... ha.... i guess this is the power of a mood swing.

Yeah.. i dun deny tat i'm having PMS.. another type of PMS la.. hahaz. haiz. suddenly so many things happen at 1 go.. not really big things that are all out to bother me. just that it all accumulated and the impact may not be small as well.

sigh.. alot ppl can't make it tml. i guess i have to postpone it.. so sorry xp! mayb i was too last min.. yeah.. i'm such a last min person, who can't seems to organize things well. i'm such a useless fren, let alone best friend. super absent-minded, owaz left my things in school and i forgot abt it.. haiz...

i think i'm anti-social.. i envy so many ppl around me. yeah, perhaps i'm such a loner... fiona, let us share our woes together. i feel so distant from my frenz... really.... sorry to post abt this, but sometimes the topics they talked i really feel so distant. yah.. i'm so stupid. i din wan to study jc, i din go uni.. all of them are together, except me.

i didn went to jog as much as i wanted to. thanks to the last min tummy ache after i published my previous entry. serious! no kiddin.. great timing eh?

i sux in school work, i sux in opening up to ppl, i sux in studies, i sux in presentation, i sux in every single thing. Sigh.. yes i'm ugly and stupid. i shld not have existed..

Dear is sick.... haiz. sounds so serious.. dear must take care. juz now tt sms really made my heart jump.. duno y.. so bothered by it. Please get well..... haiz.....

All happened in one hour, can u believe how i manage that? damnz... how i wished i were in other country now. oh guys, if u all duno abt it, i'm thinking of furthering my studies in aust. haven decided yet. but will work for a couple of years most prob...

i shall end off with... *tml shall be a better day* hugz to myself....

Decided to give my blog a new lease of life!!~~ =)

Have not been blogging becos i duno wat i wana blog about.. hahaz! Yupz... anywae Happy belated 19th birthday to dearest xueping!! *hugz*!

Had gmp and pa2 quiz today. Hmmz... wat else can i say? lol~

Sigh, deardear is sick! muz take care dear... or else i cannot get sth i wan! *humph* tink only u know wat it is... =(

feel like going down for a jog now! Til then... *tata!*