I'm so tired! Woke up rather early today and went out to play~~~! Met deardear later and went to TM to shop around and eat! There's this new place at Level 4, named the Central. It sells chinese food basically, and i find it so dianoz cos one of the menu they have is Nissin Maggie Mee!! Pengz. and 1 bowl of that Nissin Maggie Mee is $5.50!! Anyone who wants to eat Nissin Maggie Mee can tell me, i'll only charge you for 1 dollar k.. (^_^)

Hees.. Bought a simple white top at Isetan just now too! The pattern is rather similar to the one i bought ydae at This Fashion spree~ kinda like it! hehes.. Oh ya, this round of This Fashion spree was rather a disappointing one for me. I only bought 1 top and a skirt, and i can't really find sth very nice. =( Nevertheless, i enjoy the outing with wee and jan ydae~! Hees.. =D

To Jan>>
I'm really sorry today for saying telling you those things just now. I really didn't thought you will take it hard, but i really talked to that girl alot and trying to fish things out from her to tell you. I didn't know it will hit you hard, because anywae, its only 15 mths, or rather 12 mths. Please dun get affected by the things we said okay?? Follow your heart and i believe that's the route for you. Remember that when u feel tired having the feeling being in square one, we are in this with you. Let's jia you together k! =)

Hmmz, as for me, i dun really have good or bad feelings abt it. But i'm really, really happy and contented that i've did my best. No matter what's the outcome, i will accept it. =)

Having bad menses cramp right now. Shit.

I'll marry the man who dedicate this song to me:

Peter Cetera
Glory Of Love

Tonight it's very clear and we're both standing here
There's so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone
Sometimes I just forget say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't want to lose you
I could never make it alone
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

We live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love

A perfect fairytale which i've always dream of. Its one of my favourtie song, its the song for kenshin's mtv as well. =)

Yesterday was my first time participating in a car rally challenge!! Not really a car rally, more of an Amazing Race! Woke up at an agonizing 6am in the morning, and reach kallang stadium around 7.15am. Met up with my aunt, uncle and cousin and we headed to the People's Association.

It was called the N.E.X.T challenge on Wheels (North-east Xtreme Challenge). There are 30 cars participating. We are flagged off at around 9.15am where we head to out first destination, Marina City Park Carpark! We had a very tough time finding the officials although we reach the destination very early! Almost gave up and finally we spotted them! Had great fun running abt finding clues and stuff~! =) And i felt the worst game was to gulp down half a cup of Wasabi drink!!!!!!! I swear to whoever up there that i'll never touch that thing ever again~! lolz..

2nd station was at Singapore Poly main entrance. And pengz, in the end we find the officials at a hidden canteen inside. They name that as main entrance?! haha.. 3rd location is a Pasir Ris Park, 4th is at Kranji Memorial, and 5th is at Bukit Batok Nature Reserve! Phew.. there are a total of 6 stations, and due to too much time wasted in the first station, we can't manage to complete our last station, which is at East Coast Park...

Although we didn't won anything (1st prize is $5k btw..-.-) I really had a great great time!! Too bad i haben receive the uploaded pics from dear or else i'll upload it here! Hees.. Will join again if there's another one, and make sure we get first this time!! =p

Oh yah, am glad that at least we still have the chance to fight to be together. Somehow i'm very motivated to fight this time although it isn't really what i want, but to grab this chance to be together. Let's gambette k!! =)

Nothing to do, shall upload some pics on ydae's dinner at Marche to celebrate limin's belated birthday! =)


Bithday girl limin, and me!!




Selina and Me! We'r slanted.. =p




Tigeress me and liping~ *roar*




Besties! Xp and me =D




All of us together~!!! =)


Hehes.. After that went to shop a little and i tried this casual black halter dress at Fox women.



And i bought it~! =)

.....Spread your wings and fly.....

I'm currently building this pair of wings. I wish i can fly really soon. Sighh.. So many people have betrayed me already, i wonder who they are. Kinda make me tired when the old fox ask me that question today. How i wish i can answer her with pride and reply a "yes, i am" Sigh..

Anywae today is the flu pandenamic exercise. Felt real suffocating wearing that n95 mask, at one time i really felt a little groggy. In addition, it makes my face reddish and spots begin to appear, and my hair was in a real mess.. argh! The worse thing is, the exercise carries on tml as well. Save me.... Fortunately the patient load is really little today, kinda restless with the waiting. One patient fainted in pharmacy today, and i can't believe it when doctors next door refuse to come and help. Wat the hell?

Anywae, happy belated 20th birthday to limin and gladys! =) Went out with limin, liping, xueping and selina to Marche@Suntec today. Had great time chit chatting and taking pictures! =) I also bought a black halter dress which i love it, cos its cheap and casual! Yet the cutting is abit low. Hmmz..

Getting late. Ought to go slp cos i stil have to work tml. Sigh...

*i love you*

Happy 32nd month anniversary dear*

Kinda enjoy driving today. Its my 18th lesson already, 1 more month to driving test. Its the first time i knock down a pole while reversing to a parallel parking. I didn't even look back when i reverse, wtf am i doing? Just felt tt my mind isn't there, until the deafening sound shook me up. Sigh..

Every day at work is hell. I felt my mind is going crazy. I felt that everyone has this mask on his/her face, i can feel the poisonous evil glares they give me, everywhere i go, i thought people is observing and ready to pounce on me anytime.

I'm going schizoprenic, i'm falling into depression.

I felt this extreme exhaustion.

i'm just a failure in life.

No matter what i do, i always fail.

No matter how hard i try, people will never think i can make it.

I'm so tired, really.

So far my life has been a dead boring one. Sorry i owaz become passive when turn to blogging, because i felt this sheer emptiness within me. =/ Sighh.. how i wish my dream is achieved, how i wish i can leave this dreaded place, together.

Why people at work like to pinpoint others when sth crops up? I dun deny that fact that some ppl at work actually keep accusing me things that i have not done, when there's a problem arised. Why must i be the only one that will make mistake? Just because i'm new? That's bullshit k. Some old hag at work thought she's so good and experienced that she even type slower than a newbie. What a shame. So stop saying me.

People ask me that change job. But i dun wan to learn thing all over again, i dun wan to adapt to new places all over again, and definitely i dun wan to undergo any more training. I have no more stamina for all these craps. At least now i'm used to being at this place, i shall stay until its time for my to fly out. All i have to do is to endure for the time being. I'm really working hard to building my pair of wings. I promise myself to fly away, soon. Hopefully luck can lead me the way as well.

Haha, today retail is so busy that need to ask SOC pharmacy for SOS. Miss tan came down and spectulate awhile, den say "why can't ask the PTs to dispense?" True enough, i was thinking, cos Miss Wong request for a pharmacist. Hmmz.. Why is retail so special? PTs seldom dispense in retail, does that mean we are incompetent? Hmmz... If you argue that pharmacist will waste their knowledge if they dun dispense, what abt the PTs? Wasted 1.5years of PT course to do packing? What abt dip holders? Waste 3 years of studying to do packing? Ironic.

Enough abt work, its meaningless anywae. Bleah. I dun care if anyone's seeing this.

Weird things seemed to happen today. This morning when i was at work, because it is a saturday, the morning is usually not busy. I remember i was slacking inside the pharmacy, and was staring into space, facing the main glass door. Suddenly, i saw the glass door open. I saw no one walking pass, and there isn't a single soul in the pharmacy waiting area. Well, i guess it could be the wind. However, this door has been faulty for quite some time. The sensor is not sensitive at all, sometimes a person has to try several times to get near to the door before it opens. Let alone wind?? I didn't think much abt it anywae.

Just now when i was heading home from KBox, at around 11.30pm, i called dear and talked on the phone with him because it was dark. When i was approaching my void deck, i heard people fumbling with their keys at the letter box area, as if they were going to open the mail. I really thought there is someone there, and i felt that it would be better at least i have someone with me to take the lift. However, when i turn to the lift area, i see no one, and i heard no more sound. It was rather disturbing~ It couldn't be my imagination because i was on the phone talking abt other things, and i didn't think abt anything extraordinary at all. I was rather freaking out but luckily i had dear on the line.

Is the economy turning good that even hell open its door earlier and give the souls an advanced holiday?

Anywae, went Marine KBox with wee, jan, wilson, emily and joanne today. As usual, we opt for the buffet dinner~! Hmmz.. Was rather expensive though. But still, once in a blue moon eh. Hehe..

I'm surprised that i can recover in such a short time. Although it still lingers on my mind at times when i think abt it, but i'm much clearer on what to do next this time. *cheers* =)

I've thought it over already. I'm glad that i can get this thing over so quickly and gain back my strength. No matter what happened in tues, i'm going to put this message across that what i'm trying to achieve is for myself, not for anyone else. Yes, u've hurt me greatly by saying those things, including critizing the job itself. However, it there's no obstacles along the way, it won't be called a dream. You are one of the major obstacle i've faced, especially it happened in the last lap. I'm going to finish the race no matter how much you are trying to pull me down. But still... i hope to gain your support. I'm your daughter.

To jan --> I really hope we can be in this together. We are not building castle in the air, we are almost through. =) Let's work hard for this last lap together.

To wee --> You have always been our pillar of strength. No amount of words can show my gratitude towards you. Thanks for the gifts you have given us. =) Its nice, really. I wish i know how express myself more to love you... =)

To those who know my "secret" --> Its okay now. Really. I have nothing to hide anymore. I've made it this far.. Even if i really failed in tues *choy*, i know... i've tried my best.

Let me finish the race.

I am not defeated yet, and i'm not going to let that happen.

Get lost.

I'm hurt..... really hurt......

To u all... i'm can never do great things......

Please dun criticize things that i've strive so hard for....

Really thanks for the "I didn say u can really get in mah..."......

I'm so hurt.

Why.......