Hmm... *thoughts-at-the-end-of-the-day*

How come there bound to be more stressors coming up after we've finally graduated. Be it financially, family, health, etc.. Its weird isn't it..? I mean, the sun still shine when we were in school, and it still shining now. Aiyah, duno how to say also, hopefully u all get what i mean. Is this the real kind of stress when adults are entering into the working world? In school, all the stress we get from were tests, quizzes, exams, results. Come to think of it, there are wider things to worry abt when we grow up. How i wish i can stay in my childhood forever. *snap myself awake*

I have so many plans and activities ahead, but how am I going to survive all those?
- Driving lessons: I've applied for PDL already, and it expires within 6mths. Die die must learn soon.
- New piano: Its either I buy a brand new one, or I fail my grade 8.
- Chalet: Its juz a form of celebration within close frenz after graduation
- Class BBQ cum kbox
- D&D - still needa get suitable clothes

All these need MONEY!
I'm withdrawing so much during these few weeks. My own cash savings have gone, really, left a few cents. What I am spending right now is all from my ATM. No more cash in my wallet. How saddening... Sigh.. Walk one step at a time...

On a lighter note, i failed my advance theory today *claps*. Haha.. anyway din really study, no need to expect also know will fail lah. However, got motivation to really study the next time! Not because its ex or what, its just that i find it so troublesome to go down lah...... >.<

I had the worse bout of gastric last night. Nothing can describe how bad it went.. Its worse than last week, and it came suddenly. I didn't slp well the whole night, and its really worse when i lie down. I woke up to take my med, but it didn't help very much. Everytime i lie down, i have the urge to sit up again.. I can't lie down at all. I just sit up and cried throughout the night... I can feel the whole balloon of air within my whole GI tract, as they are making sounds all over the place. Yet i can't do anything..

Woke up early in the morning to pass diarrhoea.. I feel so tired now. Told my mum and she asked me to take the remaining of my med first.. Its pain even now. I'm afraid that it isn't normal gastric pain, i'm afraid if its really peptic ulcer. From last night til now, i lost 1 kg. I duno where that 1 kg lost to, diarrhoea is only mild. I duno..

Tml is my pre-employment medical. Somehow, i tot i'll just fail it..

I'm at the crossroads once again. Duno where shld i head to... However, there are many choices currently. I haben applied for uni yet, i duno if i wana apply.. =x There's nth that interest me, i dun see any point in studying sth which i dun fancy at all.. I dun believe that everyone needs a degree to survive, mayb only to help to survive the criticisms from relatives when they started bombing you why you didn't go into uni. Sigh.. Hate to repeat them. Perhaps my thinking will change when i grow up, but right now, i've no interest in studying.

Currently, just feel like concentrating on my piano. Its dragging for so long.. This is the final lap. Got a call from SGH regarding the offer for work already, going down for medical check next monday. Hmmz.. Somehow, i duno if i've made the right choice. Felt very bad, just that i'll leave immediately if i find a better job somewhere, some job that's within my interest.

I have plans for future already, just that my plans keep changing.. =p Well, one step at a time. =p

Shall blog abt ydae first! Hmmz... valentine's day! Wanted to blog ydae but com was too laggy! Very sad can't post any pics cos the size too big... Tried to resize but can't! duno why.... =x

Anywae ydae is a happy day! =) =) Went to sentosa with deardear to spend out vdae. Woke up early in the morning to prepare ai xin meal for him, also prepared a 1 litre ice milo to bring there.. =p Received a huge bouquet of flowers from dd, and a nice nice pendent from Citigem.. =D

Had a short "picnic" at the pavillion at siloso beach before heading to the Underwater World! Its the 2nd time i went there..! Its still very nice.. =) But sadly the Touch Pool have no more starfish, wanted to touch the starfish. Met bernice (my cousin) and his bf there too.. hahaz.. =p Took a few pics, but dd's camera spoil, so only can take using his phone.

Went over to Dolphin lagoon after that!~ The dolphins so cute..! wonder how they train them..~ The way the jump up and down, so synchronized! hahaz.. We also went to take the "flying chair" ride, it was quite scary at first! It flew up very high, and you'll feel so vulnerable up there.. haha.. But it was okay after that... =p Went to the cable car station and took Sky Tower too... Not scary, but was abit dizzy cos it revolves round and round... hahaz.. Nice view from top! =p

Loving sentosa!~ Hope can return there soon! Love being with you dear... *muackz!* =)=)

Today went to print poster at Peace Centre with shee wee and wendy~ I've printed mine already, but i'm there to lead the way for them. =p See i so good, but they dun appreciate. haiyo.. hahaz.. went to have so many meals of fast food, growing fatter and fatter le~ =x Wana thank them for pei-ing me til 830pm.. thx! =)=)

Shall blog abt ydae first! Hmmz... valentine's day! Wanted to blog ydae but com was too laggy! Very sad can't post any pics cos the size too big... Tried to resize but can't! duno why.... =x

Anywae ydae is a happy day! =) =) Went to sentosa with deardear to spend out vdae. Woke up early in the morning to prepare ai xin meal for him, also prepared a 1 litre ice milo to bring there.. =p Received a huge bouquet of flowers from dd, and a nice nice pendent from Citigem.. =D

Had a short "picnic" at the pavillion at siloso beach before heading to the Underwater World! Its the 2nd time i went there..! Its still very nice.. =) But sadly the Touch Pool have no more starfish, wanted to touch the starfish. Met bernice (my cousin) and his bf there too.. hahaz.. =p Took a few pics, but dd's camera spoil, so only can take using his phone.

Went over to Dolphin lagoon after that!~ The dolphins so cute..! wonder how they train them..~ The way the jump up and down, so synchronized! hahaz.. We also went to take the "flying chair" ride, it was quite scary at first! It flew up very high, and you'll feel so vulnerable up there.. haha.. But it was okay after that... =p Went to the cable car station and took Sky Tower too... Not scary, but was abit dizzy cos it revolves round and round... hahaz.. Nice view from top! =p

Loving sentosa!~ Hope can return there soon! Love being with you dear... *muackz!* =)=)

Today went to print poster at Peace Centre with shee wee and wendy~ I've printed mine already, but i'm there to lead the way for them. =p See i so good, but they dun appreciate. haiyo.. hahaz.. went to have so many meals of fast food, growing fatter and fatter le~ =x Wana thank them for pei-ing me til 830pm.. thx! =)=)

After 3 days of agony.... Finally went to see doc juz now~! Hmmz.. different diagnosis from previous time, it is hyperacidity now. But seems more serious cos i'm taking 3 med instead of 2 which i took last time. Haha... Famotidine, domperidine and strocain. Its the first time i know that famotidine muz be completed... =O Hope it can heal soon!

My tagboard isn't working. I duno y i cannot post, mayb cos of virus... =x Anywae thx to those who tagged me!
Fiona - promise u all to send xmas card this year! =)
Xp - no problem! i'm available whenever u need a listening ear... ^_^
Liping - yeah, i've ai guo qu le.. =) thx for encouragement always.. best of luck to u too!

Hees.. Tml's valentines' day. Any surprises? *burps* for the 10000000th times.

I hate gastritis!
I hate gastritis!
I hate gastritis!

It feels like a fireworks~ yes! but its exploding acid! During normal times when it haben erupted, u feel as if ur stomach is a balloon~~ so much air... yet u know it when u feel hungry. You can eat alot but u dun feel full. Rather, its like "dun eat also seems like full already, yet eat already like not full" feeling. But when it erupts, u feel like some fireworks exploding within it....

Not sharp pain. But dull pain.

It goes on and off, and off and on. Esp i hate it when i sleeps. Exploding acid in a supine position is much worse than you are sitting in an upright position. That explains why I can't get to sleep 2 nights ago and made me miss my napfa test.

Somehow.. I wish i have some antacids right now. -.-

I feel so sick and tired writing MP log book...
Yet i feel so guilty playing games...
So.........................

I shall just blog!

Zzz! I yearn for rest days... more rest days! Meaning, a day where i can just relax and play and do whatever i like without having to think and worry too much about projects! I dun mind procrastinating anywae, becos i'm enjoying the procrastinations! =D

I hate it when i'm caught between 2 decisions. I'm bad in making good decision. Blame it on my forever absent-minded, senile, useless brain. I always forgot dates and events, that's why I tend to make empty promises and breaking them. Haizzzz.. If one day someone needs a brain transplant, dun come and find me. 'Cos they'll live an even more miserable life with such a brain than a non-functioning one. Aiya.. anywae i duno what am i talking about.

Oh ya.. suddenly i felt that i've fallen in love with mandarin oranges! I can eat 4 oranges in one go! =/ I know its heaty.. but.. sort of addicted. I tot it contains nicotine. Anywae, those who have extra oranges at home and find them an eye sore, u are always welcome to donate them to me!! =) P.S. I want those sweet sweet mor peng ones, i dun wan those act pretty on the outside and not sweet in the inside ones. Hope u get what i mean ^_^

Its time to update! Yupz, my SIP has ended!! =D So many ups and downs during SIP, mainly becos of proj. Shan't rake up the miserable past. Anywae, 1 more week to go and i'll be free! I certainly dun miss doing MP, but definitely miss school life.. =/

Ydae had dinner with Maggie, Liping and Xueping. Many couldn't make it cos of quizzes in school~! Hahaz.. I was also like that in the past. Anywae had fun just talking abt the past. Yeah, i had infinite crushes in the past, can't keep track of the number. Lolz.. but right now i'm very zhuan yi k.. *er hem* yeah u have to agree. =) Had a rather long talk with xp last night, yeah, its a long talk, considering the fact that we didn't talk on the phone for...... ages. Glad that u are willing to share with me ur probs.. =) Hope everything just turn out right for u.....

Everyone's so motivated to chiong proj.. Why am i still procrastinating?? Perhaps i've juz given up on it huh.. Who cares.