Hmmz~ although i had nearly 12hour of slp today, it isn't enough!!! I woke up still feeling sleepy and unfreshed, because i woke up in the middle of the night, for no reason at all, and another time in the morning, cos it was raining.. Had to msg xp to cancel our swimming date~ Haiz...

After that went piano~ Haha.. Was actually looking forward to it cos i'll be receiving my full package~ Including the cd, the aural pieces, sight reading etc etc... The whole thing only cost $60! All thanks to my lovey teacher! Hahaz... It was supposed to be over $100~ =p Sorry dear couldn't have lunch with u cos i have to run, sorry for the wasted trip... So sorry... =(

I reached Somerset around 2.50pm to meet Ber. Was supposed to catch De-lovey, but i guess we were too late! It was raining really heavy!!!! The 2 of us shared a small umbrella, and got ourselves dripping wet!!! Haha! Imagine it was so heavy and wet that we are unable to cross the road to cineleisure, which was just 10m away from our shelter! So funny! And end up standing under the rain and waited for like 10yrs before we manage to reach Cine... -_-! We ended up watching a REALLY BORING show, Before Sunset!!!!!!! OMG! Waste our money!!!! I was frezzing cold because I was wet, and felt so uncomfortable having all my clothes soaking with rain water!!!! I tell u all what, the ENTIRE show is about a couple having conversation, all the wat til the end! Can u imagine that?! No action, no music, NOTHING! Juz dialogue!!!!!!!! =x That would be the worst movie I've ever watched in my whole life!!!! Nothing could be worst!

Hehe.. After that went round and round looking for our desired Long John Silver that Ber wants, cos she "remembered" it was behind Taka or Wisma~ Yeah, from Cine, to Heeren, to Taka, to wisma, back to taka, and she said sth "Or was it at Cine??" I was like........................ I knew there's one at Cine, but i thought she knew another one at Taka.. Hahaz~ Almost faint from the hunger cos i only had a bread for the whole day~~ After that went shopping at the Taka sales! So many brands! So many people!!!!! So squeezy!!!!!!! Hmmz... bought a Converse back pack for only $19.90, i quite like it, though i think that was quite an outdated model. But who cares~~~~ Life isn't all about branded and cool stuff rite? Duh~ Heez.. Had quite a memorable fun day~~ =p

Why am i always looked down upon at? Why must u compare me with another girls when they are much more experienced than me? So what if i dun enuf sleep, dun look gd, and have dark rings? I know i'm not pretty, i know i'm fat, did u have to spell out and launch a personal attack?

Sometimes frenz dun really understand the situation, needless to explain also. I know it myself can le... I know ppl view me as an incompetent pampered girl who is unwilling to experience any hardship, well, mayb i am partly.. But do you all really think that i actually want to work hard for something but all doesn't turn out good? Perhaps not.. Therefore i say there's no need to explain anything.. Was feeling kinda sianz today lahz, due to some reasons which i dun feel the need to disclose.. Sometimes u can see things for yourself..

A smile from you may light up a person's day without you knowing, but i never get that smile from you.

Wah... getting irritated man~! Some ppl thought they understand me very well, when actually they dun lor! I'm not referring to my frenz lahz, i mean.... a senior of mine, whom we din see for 3years? Whom we dun really noe each other? Kaoz... *GrrrRRRRRrrrrr!* Say wat i scared of guys lah, say what i very lazy lah... -_-!! Keep bugging me!!!!! Haha... he's a very well-known flirt, i think even he himself admit bah.. Read his testimonials, all his frenz say tt, and he's not ashamed of it i guessed.... =x Keep asking me go out lor! kaoz... i mean, he's not interested in me, tink he wants to go out with all the girls in the world man!!!! =x I play SP he oso want to play, den act as if very pro like tt.... Always have nothing better to do... -_-.... He's now in Army leh, y nth to do? Medic very free one ah? Still say can play SP in camp!

Something to be happy about is i get 2 days of off-days this month, due to the push up of holidays from the 2 days of Public Holiday in Nov. Oso not very fair lahz, cos they dun wana pay me double, but by right they should give me 4days of holidays liao! Bth! But cnnt blame lahz... Lemmi is quite pathetic, have to save up mah~ Haiz... My pay is pathetic, but its understandable.. =x

To all frenz taking A levels! Jia you wor! =)

So tired!!!!!! Today i have no time for meals, no time for resting man!!!! Eat halfway muz serve customers.... Zzzz!!!!!! Sobz... My heels are flatening........ But i enjoy work today lah, hehe! Got one 1yr old malay boy sOoooOooooo cutE!!!!!!! Feel like pinching his face!!!!! hee!!!! =p

Hmmz, its interesting that many ppl advertise their results in their blogs! Haha.. so fun! Can peek at them.. =p Well, as far as my results are concerned, i'm not sad anymore! Yeah.. i'm happy! Satisfied! Guess many ppl din do really well this sem, so.... There's nth to b sad about.. Anywae my GPA has risen!!!! from 2.52 to 2.73.... =) 0.37 to go! =)

Tml will be working at united square! Sianz!!!!!! Dreading it~~~~~

haha.. wee really happy for her results~ well well, ur made promise to humphrey ko and u din break it! =) happy for u.. really~~ =)

well.. i got some shit results. haha. mayb u shldn't tink too highly of myself oso lah. Some ppl are born smart, while stupid ppl like me get shitty results no matter how much hard work i put in. lolz... well, can't blame. Mayb i have some learning disabilities lah, or i'm just born stupid. lolz.

3.0 GPA??? wait long long. cos my yr 1 results damn sucking mah, just like me. lolz.

I SUX. I'M INCAPABLE. COS I SUX.

I MISS MY BEAUTY SLEEP!!!!!

So sad!!! have to wake up early everyday!!! =( Haiz.. deprived of slp... Tml going swim wif xp!! Yeah!!! But she bully me..~! want me to wake up early again!!!! haiz.. =p lolz.. I only have Friday to slp lehz... Sobz...

Results will be out tml!!!!! Haiz... sianz... Hate it!!!! I dun wan to noe my results...! It's sure to be PATHETIC!

Heez, today's work is actually fun!! I love to work at TM~! =D Time flies man.. When i tot it was 5+pm, it was actually 9.15pm.. =x~! Which means i was gg to knock off~! Wahaha.. love this feeling man. I cnnt exp this in United Square =x every second hurts... lol..

Happy 11th month anniversary dear!!! =D Yeahz... today is our 11th month, too bad we have to work today.. =( Anywae thx for the treat at Breeks! =D hehe.. i love u owaz~! MUUAAaaaAAacccCCCkkkz!!!!~ *~*~*~

The thought of missing Xi Ling Men part 2 pierce my heart. The thought of missing Samurai X stabs my heart. The thought of missing Pearl Harbor part 2 breaks my heart.

Job is okie... that's all.

I'll start my slimming down plan right away. Something happened that stopped my heart.

Tml is D-day! I'll end up like Pearl Harbor tml, getting bombed, destroyed, worned out. Hahaz.. I'M GOING TO MISS PEARL HARBOR PART 2 TML!!!!!!! =( Josh Hartnett is sOoooOoo shuai!!!!! ARGH.. His smile is much more heart-melting that Christopher's... =p Hahaz.. Oh man!! Going to hana again liao.. Hehe!!!! =D

Argh.. the tot of tml really turns me off man~! Well, perhaps i should count my blessings? Haha.. money, time-killing, everybody wans a job and i got mine. BUT! i'll miss my pearl harbor, my kenshin (!!!!!!), my xi ling men, my ren wo ao you!!!!! Haiz.. all these already hurt my feelings! =( Wat am i thinking man~ no job = sianz, rot... Job = miss all my favs... =( I'll be grounded til 5th of dec!!!!!! When sch starts at 6th.. How nice isn't it??? haiz.. My plans are dashed!!!! My movies, my swimming, my kbox, my wild wild wet!!!!! :'(

MOST IMPORTANTLY... my 11th month and 1st yr anniversary... all gone..............................

Hee! The boss didn't call me yesterday! So today i need not go to work! =) Yeah! At least i can watch the first part of Pearl Harbor today... Haiz, duno whether tml i can watch not.. =( Hope she doesn't call today oso lah. LOL!

Went to my grandma's bdae ydae.. A typical restaurant with 10 dishes lahz.. haha~ I owaz like this kind of gathering, makes me feel like another person, which is me~! Lol... Loves my hyperactive cousins as well.. hehe~! Ohhh~~ My aunt works as a secretary, and whenever there's Secretary Day, her boss (a Japanese) will owaz give them a huge discount to go overseas!!! This year, they will be going to Tokyo!!!!! O-M-G!!!!!! And it is less than $1000 per person!!!! She ask me and Ber whether we wana go anot... Argh, i want to go!!!!!!!!!! Tokyo!!!!! Kenshin's origin~!!!!! lolz~~~~ I duno whether we can really go not lehz... My mum's okie with it lahz, but i duno whether my aunt is serious not leh.. Haiz.. But it is at the end of Nov, if i'm working den *poof*, here goes my trip... =(

Later going out with deardear to watch White Chicks! Been wanting to watch for a long time~ Hehez.. Just going over to Bishan lahz, cos i wana watch Pearl Harbor tonite at 7.30pm!!! =D Josh Hartnett, here i am!!!! =D

Hehe! Sort of created this skin myself... =) It's abit plain lahz.. but happy for my first attempt.. =p

Hmmz... duno wat am i thinking now leh... =/ so mao dun.. Found a job at United Square, working as sales asst at a children's boutique. Well, if i haven't got a job for the hols, i'll feel so useless... Now i got it, i sort of dreaded it.. =/ Well well, haha.. okie lahz, just that i'm not mentally prepared. We casually went into the shop TM to ask ydae, cos i thought it would be hard cos normally they would want a full-time auntie.... Well, i'm now tt auntie. lolz

Sianz ahz.. today's "training and interview" sux lor... I almost answered everything wrong.. She pointed everything, and i told her it is a "jacket". Everything oso jacket... Walauz, i no exp mah, how i noe rite... Hahaz.. Anywae, i'll be more permanent at United Square, sometimes will be transferred to Paragon.. Hmmz, hope she'll contach Wendy and Janice too bah. Den at least there's some company... =p

Finally went swimming today! Yeahz!! with xp... Hehez.. didn really swim.. We spent most of the time at medium pool.. =p its been more than a yr since i stepped into the pool, therefore i need to warm up mah... hahaz... Total up perhaps i swam 2 laps =p hahaha~ Oh ya! Saw Junwen!!!! Haha... Ermz, well... no comments lahz... =x

After that we went to Amk's pizza hut to celebrate Nai Ying's bdae.. Sort of a "4/2 girls gathering" bahz..~ 10 of us were there... Woo... its been a long time since i've seen Jia Ling, she kept long hair to my surprise!!! Hahaz, still has her attitude lah.. lolz. Its her! hahaz..... Huang Qin also become more chio liaoz, long rebonded hair.. Wei Fang too!! Hmmz.... Like wat xp said, the only one who din change is Yuen Ching bahz.. haha! hair same, size same, skin tone same, height same, everything oso same!!! hahaz... gd mahz, din aged at all... =p i tink Nai Ying din change as well... =p Well, only i've changed lahz... grown fatter, become whiter oso.... Haiz, yue lai yue er xin... =/

Today's a sad day... Yeah. Was supposed to meet Fiona for lunch, but when i was in the bus, i suddenly felt very dizzy. I duno whether it is the carsick, but i'm feeling so tired and sleepy these days. Although i woke up very late in the morning, i still feel very sleepy.. Its like, fatique. Anywae, i started to break out in cold sweat on the bus, den when i alighted, i suddenly felt so light-headed, i began to see bright images around me. I feel so xin ku and helpless, becos no one's with me at that time.. Even the bus stop was almost deserted.. I felt so numb all over, probably due to me anxiety, because my limbs owaz go numb when i'm scared. I felt like fainting, i felt like lying down... I sms-ed and called fiona to cancel the trip.. i'm so sorry. Called my mum, called my dear, called home, juz to get some company and consolation. Luckily my dad's at home, and he drove to amk to bring me home...

Its not the first time i'm experiencing that.. I had the same thing when i was canoeing in sec 3, but that was due to seasickness. This time, i'm afraid it was sth more serious.. Because even beore i board the bus, i started to feel sick juz by walking to the bus stop. Probably due to the "tiredness" i had from the slp... Haiz.. I duno... Today's incident really scare the hell out of me, i'm afraid to go out anymore. In my life i felt so helpless, i am so scared that i thought i'm dying... It is really a bad experience... I didn't felt so dizzy before. Dun ask me to go check up or anything, sometimes i dun wana face reality if there is really sth wrong, i'd rather escape the truth.

Hopefully i'll be feeling better the next few days.. I wana regain my energy, i dun wana feel tired anymore.. Did i say i didn't feel healthy before? Look at my wishlist and u'll know..

Today is a happy happy day!!! =) Wahaha... My piano teacher sms-ed me around 3+pm today, and she wrote "Congratz, u pass ur exam.. 107... =>" Wahaha! i was really really happy! Although that was a borderline pass, i'm very glad that i need not waste another yr retaking, most importantly, it was a huge burden to my family.. I dun wan my family expenses to be wasted for a year.. =)

Well, was kinda not feeling well this morning... Every morning i wakes up, my phlegme is settled down near my lungs, choking me.. Feel so xin ku. Sorry mervin that i cannot make it to his house warming..=( Felt better in the afternoon, den xp dated me out! =p Hahaz.. She was in a shopping spree mood i guess, having saved so much for the CIP trip, but has decided not to go.. Hmmz, i din dare to spend so much cos my own weekly savings are not much. Happy that i've bought my swimming costume! =) Hopefully my cough and flu can go away soon! I wana start a healthy lifestyle in this holiday... (",) Hehez.. Had fun today, really. We took neoprints together as well! It was such a long time we took one, that old one was took in sec 3.. -_- lolz...

Came back around 7pm, juz nice to watch yi tian tu long ji last episode.. hmmz, quite boring but it was a happy ending bah... Heez... den til now lor!! Read ber's blog.. Hmm, dun worry uncle is recovering already k? Was quite worried too... My mum described to us the situation, it was scary... Really. I went into TTSH ICU before last yr to visit Fiona's dad.. It was really a heartbreaking scene.. But everyone has recovered, so all will be fine =)

Feeling taking a breather after 4 days straight of exams~! Phew... I had not really slp for abt 1 week le.. Gonna slp til full tonite! I'll be having last paper at Sat.. Tml shall pick myself up and chiong!~ Too lethargic and weak to study today.. My flu is really taking a toll on me, and the sore throat doesn't help at all..

Went to had lunch with Wee and Jan today.. Its been some time and we lost touch with one another bahz.. All were busy with studies during the study breaks and exam week.. Nice to sit down and relax for a meal at our very own cafe~ =) Haha.. Tt's our usual hangout in sch i guess... =p So far, the papers that i've took were not really good. Hmmz.. I've put in my best but i still had a bad feeling abt them.. OC2 was one of the worst papers. Haha! Organic Chem juz ain't my cup of tea~~~

Received a very shocking news today. My 4th uncle is in ICU now.. With sudden breathing difficulty and now result in heart failure. It is really scary when this type of thingy juz happen on u suddenly without any notice.. I've juz seen him abt 1 week ago during the "reunion dinner", and he was perfectly fine! Life is really unpredictable.. Although i'm not very close with him, i still felt quite scared and worried for him.. Hope that Gasper and aunt are okie. I wonder how Gasper is feeling right now, I can't imagine putting myself in this 9-yr-old's shoe, i'll breakdown. We should really enjoy life to the fullest everyday.. We will be caught unnotice one day, and it will be too late when we regret. Why is life so cruel?

It is so unfeeling and insignificant when we study FPath of diseases like tt.. We can memorise all the type of disease like myocardial infarction, atherosclerosis and all tt type of shit. But we'll never understand the seriousness in it unless we've encounter that.. We are like, studying for the sake of studying. I hate this feeling.. Now i dun even noe wat exactly is heart failure.

Feeling like shit ahz!~ Coming down with flu and sore throat during exam period is definitely a no-no!!! Haiz.. How am i going to study, feel so lethargic and weak... All because of tt stupid FPath!!! Hate it... Argh.. Luckily its over.. I hardly slept for 3hrs last nite, i couldn't fall asleep!! Haiz.. Turned in at 1am, been flipping here and there, woke up at 3am, den slp again, den finally woke up at 4+am.. So i studied from 4+am til i went sch... First time i've experienced this. Haiz...

Faced with immense pressure last nite.. All those impt stuff for FPath i've not studied, when tt time was 12am.. Due to the stress, i develop low immunity, lack of IgA secretion in mucosal secretion, and Streptococcus is the opportunistic infectious agent!! My throat hurts and... ARGH! Hate all those lowly bacteria and viruses, esp opportunistic ones. Anyhow take advantage of people, live a life okie?! Dun owaz live such a lowly and indecent life! It wun take u anywhere~!!! Damn.. i'm crazy.

I'm going to destress.. Still left with 3 topics of OC2, but i've reached clonal exhaustion stage.

I wish exams are over, but i dun welcome holidays.

Aimm and Hpi are gone case, i wonder how's Fpath tml? Should be the same..

Super no mood to study now.

Finished topic 3. Still stuck at topic 2 amyloidosis.. I'm pinning hopes on Fpath. Pls do well..

Damn, i studied so much for action potential for nervous physio, none of them came out. How lucky am i? Mr Ko cheat our feelings... =( Cardio and Respi din come out at all... haiz. Waste my time... I'm focusing on the wrong things. Its over... I muz concentrate on FPath.