Am i sad? hmm.. i duno too..

Guess that i am...

I'm slowly adapting to the 1-week-see-you-twice life. At least i dun feel so sad seeing you leaving me, i'm growing stronger.. =) I'm certainly looking forward to you passing out. Hees..~

I told wee wat my goals are in the near future already. Hmmz.. actually i felt that its kinda far-fetched, like i'm not cut out for this at all. Well, i guess that's the reason why i termed it as a "goal".

Week 0 orientation is over!! Its not a bad experience after all, when i come think of it. At least i've made some friends with the juniors, and not as bad as i thought it would be.. =) hees..~

Today is a super tiring day..~ Physically tired, plus the fact that i'm not in my top condition. Probably due to insufficient sleep, have a massive headache in the morning, at one moment everything i see seems to be so bright, kinda sickening. Felt better in the aftnoon, but there are so many patients today!! There are literally 4 staff down as compared to last week, and i'm behind doing picking and checking for 90% of the time. Dun even have time to go for toilet break... But nvm, i like, cos time flies faster.. =)

Tml i have to do dispensing again. Hmm.. somehow the patients here are chronic cases, so need not explain too much to them. But still have to go revise a little on cardiovascular drugs again, or else i dun have much confidence in myself. I hope that the week will pass by very soon, cos i'm on leave from wed-fri for Week 0!! =) Looking forward to friday when dear can book out again!!

*if only i'm embraced in your arms right now*

I'm glad to spend quality time with you for the past few days.. =) Time is short but sweet. I'll be looking forward to every weekend.. Sorry that i dun feel like sending you off, cos i dun like the feeling of seeing you walking away from me, it will be unbearable. Hope you understand.. =)

I'm also looking forward to Week 0 orientation. Though i'm not prepared and dun even know who's my OL partner is, but at least its an escapade from the working world. Hope everything goes right... Most importantly, its a time of enjoyment with friends.. =)

* I want to be strong *

I'm at dear's house now.... Dear booked out today!

Had a bad day at work.

But...

I'm happy =)

*you light up my life*

I want to give myself a pat on the back for coping this well. =) I'll be okay during work, at least.. =) I know i have to get used to it. And i'm sure that soon i'll be okay. Today deardear is enlisted. I didn send him off becos i have a lecture at 830am, with a test in end of the session. I hope dear will be happy in there... I'll be waiting.....

Right now, i'm in Heart Centre pharmacy. I can say that the people there are nice. This helps to make time pass faster, i.e. rotation can seem to end faster. I used to dread working, but now i kinda like it. Because work can help numb my feelings, at least i wouldn't think so much.

Dun worry guys, i'm not having depression. I just caught a cold. Ate 4mg stat dose of piriton and now waiting for the drowsy effect to engulf me.

*Give me the time and i'll gain enough strength to tide over this period*

I'm back from a 4D3N camp in school from Wed to Sat (5th-8th apr)!!! I still can't believe i can survive such camps becos i dun really like camps... haha.. =p Well, all i can say its that it is better than expected, although i can see that it was rather unorganized. However, being the participant wouldn't have really felt the disorganization cos we would take the "free-time-nothing-to-do" as extra hours to rest and play within ourselves.

Oh! I haben mention that this camp is an Orientation Leaders Training Camp (OLTC). We were trained to bring in freshies during their Week 0 orientation. Although i've already graduated from TP, i think we volunteered to come back just to have fun..=x hahaz.. I'm so happy that all 5 of us (joanne, emily, shee wee, janice and me) were all in the same group!! =D song bo!~ love having fun and going thru all these with them! =)

The camp was tiring cos of insufficient sleep. The activites were rather okay. Its the first time i took part in 12x100m relay! Can u imagine?! 12 participants in a relay, i.e. 300m in total. hahaz.. so weird. Anywae glad we won 2nd~ Hmmz.. wat else?? Apart from all the games and stuff, i've thoroughly enjoyed the Treasure Haunt (hunt for clues from midnight 12am to around 2am+ all over the school!=X!, the mass dances and learning new school song (in sign language!!!)~!

I'm glad that dear drove me back on the last day of my camp! Cos i'm drained out and the bag is super heavy!!!!! Went for piano and my teacher said that as if i was dying. Hahaz.. glad she releasd me early and dear drove me back... thx deardear!! =D *muackz* Went home and felt very touched cos my mum helped me wash ALL the clothes and offer to squeeze orange juice for me while asking me to rest cos she said my face colour not nice. Felt abit cold towards to end of the day and thought i'm falling sick. Glad that i'm not~ hehes.. Still feel abit tired now.... Hope i have enough energy for work tml. =(