What am I doing here man.. I am suppose to start mugging, but I'm not~ Haiz.. Been feeling restless and tired the whole day, most probably due to some stupid 8am lecture. I wish i can slp longer, just like the night before, when there's no PMic lab~ Heaven..~ Sigh.. I suddenly realized how un-motivated am I.. I promised myself to study!!~ Why can't i do it despite encouraging and reminding myself of my aim??? haiz.. i guess many people are like me, all are too tired. The higher the expectations of myself, the more the stress is piling on me~ I can't breathe, i can't think, i can't study. God~ What is happening to me..

On contradiction, if u were to ask me whether i prefer holiday or sch days, i would choose sch days~ =p Wahaha.. Well.. I dun believe that results are predestined, because the one above will be too busy if he/she were to predestined everything. At least things like studying and results, i believe is up to oneself. However, i dun trust myself to have that sort of energy. Oh btw, today's CSAS was quite smooth in the beginning, but we sort of flunk it during the AOB. Haiz.. All thanks to me, i was supposed to read out the AOB, i guess i didn't emphasize enuf on the objective, and we talked too far out of point. Sigh... Sorry peeps! Gomen Nasai!~

Well, i guess i gtg, and shan't update until the end of the term test. Looking forward to the fulfiled one-week term break, although it will be filled with projects, projects and more projects. Well, can this be considered as a break?

I feel so tired and sianz~ I have no mood to do anything now.. Everything just dun go right. I wanted to study during the two 3-hours break today, and i intend to bring my Immunology Text to sch. But i just forget to bring it with me when i step out of the house.. I wasted the 2 breaks.

I thought my com has dropped dead last nite, and it really bothered me cos PMic have to do tonnes of research.. I was totally off-mood at that time, i thought i'd die if i were to stay back in school to do the tutorial. Cos it requires a few days of research (for me lah), and i dun have the time to stay back anymore. I live in hougang lor.. Term test's nex week. Felt so sianz.. Luckily my com has revived lah.. haha.. mayb it was over-heated last nite. Phew..

I was so happy and thankful when Frank told me abt the mass FPath tutorial quiz tml..! On wound healing and edema.. I thought i owe him a great favour.. Cos i feel that tutorial quizzes are the easiest to pull up the overall marks.. Thanks for the info! But little did i realised at the moment, my notes was with Shee Wee.. Ha..... Suan le. I feel so tired. I feel useless.. I hate my life.

Sianz ahz!~ why can't i get myself to study during weekends???!~ Argh.... hate myself.. Sobz. Term test's coming in a week's time, wat i am still doing??!~ Haiz.. but just can't get myself into the mood. Say i dun have any self-discipline or wat shit... But i just can't get things into my head. Haiz... Wat to do. I feel so sleepy...

Thanks Janice and Jaime..~ Hmmz.. anywae i guess i have no control over PMS as well. Haiz.. And to jan, haha, no one slapped me.. =p Juz exaggerated abit in the verge of anger.. =p Hahaz.. Hmmz, everything is fine now. I guess u've noe how much u hurt me!!!! I'm gonig to remind u again and again over these, i want to make u feel soOoo guilty!!! Wahahaz.. =p Humph! I didn't forget the Swensen meal u owed me too~~~ Humphz.... *feeling so evil*

Today's a rather slacked day!!! Hehe... i like this type of sch day though! =p Morning PMic's tutorial is only 15mins, cos all the tutorials require us to do self-reseach, therefore we were released so early. Den today's CSAS was quite slack also, just watching video, and do some practice for Minutes Writing and other stuff lahz~ Wahaha... That Evelyn Yip was sick so the OC tutorial was like *zOOm....* ended in half an hour..~ There's no FPath lab session today as well!! So i'm free now!!! =D

Waiting for Benjamin to finish his project meeting so that we could go Sumo House to have our lunch! Heez... Haiz, but jan and wendy can't go bahz~ Hmmz... Sianz, tml still need to wake up early to go to sch, cos of the darn PMic project. I feel so lost in the project right now, i duno where to head also.. Everything was stuck. Everything was throw to us juz like that, we have to start the project ourselves, we have to end it ourselves.. Sort of similar to JC's PW.. However, their's is only 1 project throughout their first yr. Us???? Zzzz... So many in a semester!!!! Argh...  Whatever Problem-based learning shit, i hate u~~~~ Humph

Today's a very sad and damn sickening day..

Anywae was abit late for morning's PMic lab today. But who cares... That time i thought, if the teacher chased me out, i wouldn't give a damn about it. At most dun attend lahz, big deal. But of cos he didn't chase me out lahz, didn even get scolded. lol.. Today's a short day, ended at 2pm after OC lecture.

Oh btw!~ Thanks to Shee wee!!~ Muackz.. Love u manz! She taught me how to retrieve the html for this skin!!~ I thought i lost it ydae, but i got it back!~ =D Wahaha.. Guess u all wun understand lahz, but she know and i know can liaoz.. =p

Hmmz, visited many ppl's blog.. They seemed to write abt the test and FPath quiz marks.. Haha..OC test.. erm.. mayb can pass lah. HPI...~~~ zzzzz... Got back my FPath quiz, disappointed. AIMM test also quite disappointed. Wat the hell am i doing... Got all these shit results.

And to you: I'll never forget the slap you gave me today.

Finally! Finished studying for HPI and OC.. Well, can't really say that i've "finished" studying, but at least i've read through all.. Hmmz, whether my brain has registered them anot, i wun know.. I've leave it to tml.. =p Hahaz.. Learnt something very interesting in Psychology. The lecturer says that a when u burn a disc in the computer, the com actually sort of "make holes" in the disc so as to save the info. Well, he mentioned that our brain works the same way. When u memorise something, ur brain actually undergoes structural changes as well! =x Omg.. I hope today's revision for the 2 tests tml did punch many holes in my brain~~
 
Tml's another loOooooong day! Sigh.. 8am-7pm without break... Sobz. Haha.. Anywae its okie.. Cos tml is a special day! Yeahz... =p Think i'll get a nice ai xin breakfast or lunch huh?? =p Hahaz.. k lahz.. kinda sleepy le.. Best of luck to people who'll be taking OC and HPI test tml~! =) Happy advance 8th month dEar~~ ("v")~ MuAcckz!~
 
 

Hee..~ Look like doc mah?? Wahahaha! Sigh... Today got HPI lab, and we were suppose to play with stethoscope, blood pressure meter and urine analysis.. In end in everyone was busying taking pics! Hahaz... Hey, once in a while we get those "cheem" items to play with.. Hehez..~ Too bad dear forgot to bring his digicam!! Argh... Wasted!!! =( Haha... this is taken from dear's friend phone. =p

Today FPath quiz.. Zzz.. Okie lahz, can pass bahz~ But i wana hold too much hopes of getting very gd grades~ Sianz.. Haha... Sianz, told wendy my "resolution" for today, but guessed i fail.. =p I was in a gd mood today, so..

Got back my Organic Chem tutorial quiz.. 4 1/2 upon 8.. Err.. okie lah, not bad huh? pass lah... feeling so sianz of all the quiz results~ I'm so stupid man.

Haha... feeling so tired now!!! ARgh... tink i stop le.. Wahaha.. love those pics! Hope sw can quickly forward them to me! =D

I feel so sick of everything now. I feel so neglected, so vulnerable. I guess u all wun care anywae, as i've discover that yesterday.. I'm not impt to u, my feelings are to be left aside everthing even though i'm sad or angry, u noe y? cos u ppl juz dun care. So why muz i try to get ur attention? By acting to put on a brave front is so tiring, i'm tired of that as these happen all the time.. I'm just so unimportant i think. I have my feelings as well, i do feel sad and angry, i have emotions. Things definitely have changed, i feel so away from all of u already, i bottled up my feelings more than i do..

A friend once asked me "why must u act happy even though u are not?" I answered " because even my face is unhappy, they wouldn't care to discover that" I guess all these are true.. I'm feel really unhappy at times, but there's no use for me to show it anywae.. At least pls be more sensitive to my feelings, never put ur happiness on my sorrow.. I guess, u all wouldn't care much as well.

I have to be on my feet on my own now.. I feel so tired..

Such a nice cooling evening! =) I always love raining days on weekdays.. Heez~ Today's lesson ended early at 2pm. Hmmz, duno y i owaz feel moody during short days.. haha~ Weird. Anywae tml's the hell-day again.. 8am-7pm without break. Hey, i know i'm not slim, but also no need to starve me rite.. =(

Seems that many ppl is very disappointed of the Immune test results. The cohort did pretty bad i guess.. Haiz. I wonder if this is really a tough subject. That Jeremy keep saying "it's ok, just a test" But i was thinking, there's only 2 quizzes in a sem, and this contributes 50%. Well, hopefully everyone will be able to do well at time goes, including myself..=)

Well, really feel that Wee changed alot~! Qad.. u heard me??! =p Lol.. Keep up your determination wor! Jia you.. A good start is very impt!! =) i know u'll do pretty well this sem~..(^^,)

It is raining now! Yeah! Cooling = mood for studying! =) Finally settled down after 2days of struggling, i just couldn't study the last 2 days, cos i was too slpy! Hmmz.. Next week's test, immunology, Pmic and Fpath. Can anyone tell me whether there's HPI test??? So many tests to study.. Sianz

Heez, changed my layout again.. =p I loved this skin.. hehe.. Kkz, gtg study. Good luck peeps! =)

I'm feeling much better now.. 9hrs of sorrow within me, is poured out just now~ Sigh.. shld have cried earlier? =p Haha.. i find no one to share my tears, so i endured til now. Finally... haha~ I guess environment is really different now. Now we have to stand on our own, there's not much ppl who really stand by ur side anymore. Thanks dear.. i love u.. muackz~

Argh! Initially i was in a good mood! But something really spoils my mood! Super sianz... All because of CSAS. Dun wish to elaborate anymore lah! I didn even noe today's meeting is about the Soy Bean thingy and the project. Kaos.. totally unprepared. Sux man.. i was not anxious at all, just sianz throughout. If only i can drop CSAS for good, i HATE IT man... Super duper sucky.

At com lab now. Haha.. today FPath tutorial at com lab. Hmmz.. quite nice lah, look at lots of diseased pics of the organs and body parts! Some are pucking man.. Yucks.. Haiz, so sad that human body can be like tt due to many many factors. If only there's no disease exist in this world...

Hmmz... Sianz sianz sianz. Going for the Jam and Hop later at 6pm. Mayb going to take a look only lah, dun wish to join in. My mood is totally down already~~~~ Zzz.. I just wish to go home and hide, and sulk by myself. Why do i feel so vulnerable during presentations, or doing activities in front of the class. Frankly speaking, i feel USELESS. I dun know how to talk in formal times, i duno how to act enthu during that. Perhaps i'm just useless... I hate myself at times. I sux to the core. I feel so much different as compared to last sem, at least i'm able to cope with my subjects last sem, unlike this sem, i'm struggling. I have short memory for everything, esp for OC2.. I remembered my stuff and understood every concepts last week, but i totally forgotten abt them today. No one will know how i feel bahz, when those people around me keep saying how easy the tutorial test is, while i know i'm gonna flunk it. I have no affinity for OC at all.. I hate myself.

Somethings made me realise that how precious life is, but shan't elaborate. Haha.

Today i am so tired! Argh.. Well, i wonder if there's one day i'll not feel tired at all, i'm refering to school days. Haiz.. I hate to wake up early in the morning, rushing this, rushing that! Hmmz, normal school day, lectures all the way. Sianz. I used to like days with all lectures, but not anymore. Hmmz, a person's thinking will change along the way i guess, yeah, psychology, behaviour. =p Haha.. Bought Immunology text book today, haiz, $41 just to used for 3 and a half months.. Sobz. Guess i have no choice either. School ends at 2pm today, yippee! Oh ya, there's no OC lab tml! Wahaha! This means that i have 3hrs break in between my 8am-7pm day.. =p

Feel rather light hearted today. Haha.. Duno why, xin fei fei de gan jue! =p Dun misunderstood, juz the pure feeling of happy. Duno y, perhaps everything has been running smooth bah, or mayb mood swing.. =) Heez... My bro's back from his 3days 2 nights Tioman trip, and went to chalet and stay again for another 2 nights. Haha.. today den officially "came home" bah. Bought some nice nice keychains and i have the honour to choose first lor.. heez~

"Live life to the fullest everyday" is a cliche, it is impossible to do that anywae. We've been taught to look far and plan for our future. But what if one day we are gone before we even enjoyed? Are our efforts wasted all these while?

Changed skin again! Stumbled upon this cutie skin, and it is love at first sight! =) This represents my 6 babies i'm going to have in the near future!! =p wahaha!

Luckily today's a wonderful day as well! Heez.. Well, went to sch early in the morning for CSAS discussion.. Zzz.. I couldn't get my lazy bum up, in the end i told dear to meet 1hr later, den we took cab..! Argh.. waste my cab fare! Sianz.. We were supposed to meet at 9am, in the end our leader came at 930am.. I shld have take a bus, cos i'll be on time den.. =( Well.. nvm lah~ haha.. Yeah, 11am we start on PMic project! Hmmz.. At least some things are done and settled! =) Haha.. I simply love the project room i booked, cheers! =p Thanks to Jocelyn bah, cos she's the one who keep wanting to get things done asap, or else the rest of us will be slacking throughout..=p Heez.. Hmmz, 2 out of 3 components have finished, left the Environment monitoring thingy.. Sighz, that one is heading to nowhere.. =(

Left sch abt 3.45pm, den went for piano~ Same usual scales and pieces.. zzz~ Saw another jocelyn again (piano-mate).. Haha.. Still as lian as ever..=x But she's nice lah.. heez. Yeah, went over to Orchard later to meet limin, liping, selina and xueping~ Argh.. Fiona cannot make it cos she's broke..=( We went over to Marche for dinner! Yummy! Haha... but guess we all were not very filled, cos we are worried abt the cost..=x That liping and selina really nv grow up lor, still play that "put-tissue-in-my-bag" game!!!! Haha!! That's our personal game in Marche bahz~ They owaz bully me one.. Haiz.. =p

Oh ya, someone was distributing flyers and when the 5 of us walked past her, she only gave the flyer to me! Argh.. Was kana laughed again!! Why owaz me??! =( Cos they say only aunties get those advertisements! humph~~ All people bully me!! Sec sch frens like that, in poly got wendy bully me! Haha.. Sad life.. Yeah, dear came fetch me =) and we pei xueping board 88! Oh ya!!! In the end, i found 5 straws, 3 leaflets and some servette (from marche) in my bag! Some childish ppl put one lor.. =p haha..

Yeah.. had a happy and fulfiled day!=) Heez..~~~

Oh, i muz start blogging after few days..~ Or else ben says my blog is dead! =p Haha.. Well, normal sch days for the past few days. Hmmz, there's a pattern to each day as well, wed i was happy, thurs i was moody, today i am happy again~! Haha.. Oh shit.. how abt tml?? =p Haha.

Firstly, i got up late today!! I overslept by 30mins!! Argh.. Had nice adventurous dream that i didn't even hear my alarm clock rang! Haha.. anywae i was only 10mins late when i reach sch, Dr Khin is too kind to scold ppl i guess.. =)Aft that had CSAS, which is, ermz.. alrite lah~ Projects and more projects.. Zzz. Had mini presentation in class, well, it was ok.. Reading from scripts is the easiest way out..=p

Oh~~ I seemed to enjoy practical more as days go by! Haha.. I used to dread every lab session! Well.. perhaps this is only the beginning..=p I simply love today's HPI lab session. We can sit anywhere we like, and me, shee wee and ai qin form a team. Hehe.. Had a fun time there =D They are all funny people.. Just cannot stop laughing~ haha.. Today's Blood Smear test is really quite difficult to master! Argh.. clumsy hand..~

Heez..~ On top of that, my mum finally cook dinner! =D i thought i was going to die cos i keep eating out for my past 6yrs of life! Yeahz.. But due to that, i have to cancel my dinner appointment with dear. Sorry dear, nex week k..=) Oh ya, my phone spoiled. I can't dial out, neither could i ans call.. =( At least i still can sms~ Colleen called today, so i can't ans! I can't hear her.. haha.. so use dear's phone to call back.. =) Yeah.. very happy! =D Oh ya, leenz if u are reading this, dun go to Storm! There's a real fat lady at Storm which is damn sickening!!! Argh.. worse like shit. really.. Kimage's much better..=)

Heez.. kkz.. tink enough have said~ I must jia you for my subjects this sem.. My energy is gaining back! =)