Still feeling abit groggy~ Once again i felt hypo-ed today right after my lunch at Burger King. Ehh.. feel weird. And suddenly it occured to me that its indigestion, and i feel nausea instead of hypo. I wanted to go to a quiet spot to do my plurging, which usually makes me feel better immediately. But i can't find any quiet spot at hougang central, so i didn actually let it out til now. Went for piano and i really can't concentrate, cos my hands turned cold, my head went light. I lied to my teacher that i'm going out so i left early.. Sigh. Just woke up from sleep now, wanted to take domperidone but realized that i've finished them. I took cinnarizine instead, which was prescribed for me for pure dizziness few mths ago. Duno whether will it works.. Shucks...

Anywae i'm happy working at Satellite Pharmacy now, very different from my perception during attachment time. Perhaps becos there's no more projects and assignments, no more student-superior feeling. Some people treat me differently. Bad ones become good, good ones some become bad, some remain the same. Hmm.. Anywae SP48 is a nice place, with nice people i guess? Just hope everything went well for 1 more week at SP48. I've made my decision to stay at Retail Pharmacy if Miss Wong still wants to keep me.. =/ Its not i dun wan to be there, just that the work life is so monotonous, picking and packing x 10000000 times, no varieties at all.

Oh yah, first formal dispensing done on thursday. Felt very excited at first, and my hands actually trembled when i dispensed to the 1st patient. Probably becos its my first time doing ward dispensing, and no metal preparation at all. =X Anywae things went rather okay, except 1 patient was sleeping so soundly and did not stirred when i called him several times, and another one requested me to run down back to the pharmacy to change something for him immediately cos he could not wait. Zzz..

Enough abt work stuff. Was supposed to meet dear to go for his squadmate's bdae bbq at Changi, but he only finished NDP training at 7pm. Timing is so uncertain. Sigh.. Wandering if we are even meeting later.. And yah, congratz to xp and selina for completing their Scuba Diving course! Glad they enjoyed themselves in Tioman! U guys rocks.. I haben even overcome my 1.8m -.-

Had a wonderful nights-out yesterday! Thanks to deardear and his fren for the A la carte treat.. =) Yummy!! hehes.. I went with deardear and his sec sch frens to Keppel Club's Tung Lok restaurant to have out feast ydae! Hehes, its been long time since i really stuffed myself with food!~! Guilt-striken, but i dun care.. =p The dishes are very cute! Because we have a total of 9 people, the dishes really come in 9s. E.g. 9 fried fritters, 9 fried man tou etc.. haha.. =p

After which, we went over to Clarke Quay to hang around. We stopped over at Brewerks Bar where they ordered something which i thought is Cherry Beer. Eeek, i duno how to drink. I ordered a simple Mocktail, with the courtesy of Janice, i ordered Shirley Temper. Haha.. its really nice! We just played Murderer all the way til 1230am den i head home with dear first.. =p Had fun bah.. hees..

Fun aside, i went to Hougang Polyclinic ydae to get a referral letter to SGH for the minor operation. Sigh, my given date is 17th July, how am i going to wait?? Anywae the doctor is kinda amused by my condition, he wrote in his diagnosis as 2cm umbilical granuloma. Sounds serious eh...? I'm going to have it removed once and for all, argh.. can't stand it!

I always seemed to be a lowly creature in this society where no one believes that i can do wonders. Well, perhaps its the fact that i sucked at every single thing i do, and i often failed to fulfil my goals. I admit that i have a very low self-esteem, i can feel it myself. However, i'm still sane and human that i deserve respect from other "highly" creatures, or those who think that they are holy angels.

I appreciate encouragement, although at times i do know that they are just trying to console me. At least, it gives me some hope and strength to pick myself up. And to all those who tried pull me down, i shan't succumb. I'm not refering to anyone in particular, just that these people shall know who they are. If they doesn't, i'll feel sad for them as they are such a failure in understanding themselves.

Sigh, i guess i'm still in a PMS mode.

Long time didn update officially~ Haha... well some ppl thought i'm dead, but i really am, mentally. So sick and tired of working. I used to be interested in learning new stuff, but now, everything juz bored me.

Rotation at A&E (Accident & Emergency, if u are unaware) now. It was quite interesting to see some of the <> cases, but most of the time when we are not busy, time really crawls. Not so bad these 2 days, i hope the rest of the days will be a breeze, cos i simply can't tolerate it anymore. I have a 4-letter-word feedback after the training rotation. I'm PMS-ing, serious case.

Finally hit the treadmill at the gym today! Phew.. I didn run for almost 2 mths i suppose. Felt good running. At least i have good frens to keep me alive during lunch breaks and after work, i'm very thankful for that. =)

Dream, doesn't really have to remain as a dream forever right?

*Wish upon a shooting star* <---- will it works?

A song which i want to dedicate to myself. It has been my favourite song/lyrics since Sec 4.

Stay the Same

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.